Why did I quit?

I quit a canvassing job (for sick kids ) because I didn’t want to wear makeup everyday

But these people in just 5 days made me feel so

Beautiful, confident smart and just content with who I was

I felt like I finally found my home, my people, a place where I was seen in a good light

Like in McDonald’s I used to be yelled at by customers and made fun of for messing up (not being trained properly) and I hated myself with a passion

That place made me feel as if I was too stupid to be working there

And the previous job before that was retail, and this real sleezy manager used to grab my arm yell at me

Tell me how Terrible and disrespectful I am

I was just talked down to all the time

But at this new canvassing job door to door

I felt so alive, seen as an actual person

I was given respect

The boss liked me a lot, he called me sharp, and beautiful ahahaha

And my trainer was like my bff she was tooo nice to me

She bought me coffee

She texted me saying nice things like “I believe in you, you have what it takes “

Honestly it was just everything I wanted in a coworker place

be like “she quit” but at the same time I didn’t want to go because I wore makeup everyday like I was breaking out

It was suicide to my skin

But it’s been 1 week and half since I quit, without a good excuse, I just told the boss through a text wasn’t for me thanks for the opportunity etc”

But I regret it so bad