I feel trapped like in wasting my youth in my relationship? Is this wrong???just need advice :(?

Whether or not you have wasted your youth in your relationship depends on what you want in life. Maybe the move wasn't the smartest move for you, but that doesn't mean you need to make it your excuse for not pursuing your desires. Instead it sounds more like you are just in a rut, not wasting your life. You obviously need to try something new and not blame your boyfriend or your past decisions for the rut you are in, and instead do something to make a change for the better to get out of it.

If you feel like this then leave.

I think what is happening is that you are suffering from a lack of emotional attention from your boyfriend. I think you should try and rectify this. What I would do is to be proactive and plan things. Remember, guys are always more hesitant to cancel when their partners plan something because they cannot live with the guilt. Additionally, try doing things that will help him relax. A guy can be so much more attentive to a woman's emotional needs when he is well rested and stress free. Finally, communication is key so don't be afraid to tell your husband how you are feeling. He needs to know what is going through your head for his own good, even if it hurts him. I really hope this helps :)