Are you happy?

I am extremely disappointed in myself for the dissatisfaction I have with my life. I don't want to call myself depressed, but I have recently shifted towards a more cynical perspective than I had previously. As cliche as it may sound, I feel as though there is a hole inside me, yet I have no means to "fill that hole". In my opinion, there are only a handful of things that can provide one with genuine fulfillment. To me those are; a sense of community/ friendships, career achievement/ personal growth, and the building of deep relationships with a significant other. With regard to friendships and relationships, I feel completely out of control in attempt to form new bonds and build existing ones. I have some friends in which I have a very superficial relationship with and for that I am grateful, however I feel as though they treat me like I am lesser than them. I can see myself out growing this group as they continuously disappoint me, but I doubt my ability to make new friendships as I am unsure how I got these ones! I have never had a real relationship before either and I believe my problem has to do with not being super confident or the outgoing type. With respect to career achievement, I feel lost as I find trouble justifying any one career path with an overwhelming passion. I fear that I will live in this state of dissatisfaction long into this life. I am unsure I want an answer as much as I would just simply like to be heard, so if you are reading this I appreciate you.