Did you every throw a tantrum as a kid that you remember very very well and feel really bad about it now?

I have Asperger Syndrome so sometimes its hard for me to communicate and control stuff and when I was 9 years old I wanted the normal line paper to write my story on and my teacher told me that I had to use the brown paper with the big lines where little kids learn to write and I didn't want it. I threw a big tantrum over it. got to the point to where I slammed my pencil on the desk. the reason why she didn't let me was because she was worried that I couldn't write small enough for the paper.