Live To Die Die To Live

So my bf or well now ex has been ignoring me for sometime like there was literally nothing going on but he would always look back at me with this look as if someone had died he would never talk to me and I would text him he would never answer I eventually couldn't take it anymore Cuz well im not a mind reader and told him he needs to break up with me I tell him this all over text I then later on tell him In person saying he needs to break up with me Cuz I'm not the person to do so and he goes idk I go well Idk he goes idk what do you want me to say I go hb your thoughts he goes bannas I go bannas are lovely and it ends there so yesterday night I took it into my own hands and called him of coarse he didn't answer so I left him a voice message saying it is over and how I can't take it anymore I thought I would feel better but I just feel regret and crushed and heart broken

Okay so I'm pale and I got a bit sun burned I need help getting rid of it cuz I have color guard and it is hot out here so I can't be wearing tshirts at all so any tips on how to be my pale self again would be great

Okay this will be a waste of your time but if your really kind you'll read okay so there are two guys both best friends and both I like one I have dated two I'm going out with one I still like two I like him too however I believe one is avoiding me now cuz he still likes me and two knows and one won't say that he loved cause he can't pull himself to say it and he says he is tricking everyone on who he likes and he won't answer if she is in band and I'm in band and on top of that two says he has the advantage over one what should I do

Okay so tomorrow is my birthday and I'm just like **** it I don't give a hoot nor holler about it for its just another 365 days that marks it I've been living for oh come on when a tree gets another ring of age line (some call it) we don't throw that tree a party idk my birthday is suppose to be special and I'm just not feeling it idk why at all I mean its to the point I don't want to do anything but go to school do color guard come home go back do color guard come home do my homework go to bed nothing more I mean I just don't see the point then yet again I'm throwing my friend a suprise bday party and its like why the hell would I do that if I don't think me having a bday is right idk I mean I'm still going to I'm not wasting months of planning anyway I just don't understand

Laugh all you want but I went to go get my eyebrows done and this lady freaked at my scar on my eyebrow which I just thought was weird so I asked for someone else to do em well.... She insisted that she would still do them only to mess up my brows to the point I have to draw them on and I am being really desperate cause seriously I looked up how to grow eyebrows back fast though realize it ain't just going to happen can someone please tell me how long it takes eyebrows to grow back like the average the average time cause I seriously need to prepare myself then for getting made fun of then thank you and I will gladly answer any questions you people have

Alright I want to start a music career I have been wanting this since the first grade though no one thought I was good enough and people thought my songs were lame so I put that a side and just wanted to be an actress(I want to be both FYI) so yeah I write music though and all though I am not sure besides YouTube where to publish it or what I should do cause I thought about going solo though I have this really cool band name in mind so yeah anyone that is into music and has a strong passion for it like I do please let me know what you think I can play a bit of guitar and I am known to play really well on the piano so... Yeah plus I got the vocals so I mean it's not like I don't have talent I just don't want it to go to waste #naughty💀

Alright so I feel like I am being stalked the other day I got a text from a person who claimed they were my friend from Ca but they weren't cause I remembered her number and it was an IL area code number up north in Chicago then today I was outside my house when a black truck I believe a ford that I have never seen in my life nor recognized seeing or knowing anyone owning one or mentioning about getting one slowly drove by and honked at me twice I am a little freaked and I feel like I am being stalked

So like I feel like my life is slowly crumbling to an end and all like I feel like I am now losing everything even though I still have a bed and all though not my mum and my step-dad all I wanted was a family that didn't fight almost every flipping week well no they are getting divorced or whatever the heck is going on and now my mum is like now you have to be my and Your brothers rock I am sorry but seriously my mum is a cheater and has done things and a liar so seriously why would I though I am though she then says I am moody and all that I tell her I am not and all she thinks the whole world depends on her and **** and I just want her to leave me the freak a lone like seriously I can see why my step dad left and I've tried to tell her though she doesn't believe me what the heck should I do before I lose it about this stuff and other stuff

For those who have seen the #naughty💀 then you must know that I know a lot o things or perhaps you may think I am the stupidest person my point being is I feel like life isn't exciting at all its boring yes I am fourteen though it feels like I read the same page in the same book over and over again I have told my mum she doesn't understand and only thinks I am a troubled teen though I am not I just wish for a bit of excitement I know you'll probable say I am to young and all that stuff but I barely leave my house to hang out and go somewhere by myself or taste freedom I always have to be watched and caged I want to live a little not go and move out and all maybe I have this problem cause I read to much I am not sure

Hi okay so this guy and I thought who liked me I finally told him and now well now I've been crushed I played it off cool pretending I was dared and all though I wasn't I thought he really liked and well he doesn't what should I do how can I just get over him and officially friend Zone him or do I even want to do that

Last night was a wreck in my house my folks screaming back and forth your thinking so the point is I've had to deal with it for fourteen years and this morning my step da said he isn't staying cause my mum is a slut and a whore too though he has a drinking problem as well and every now and then drinks down all his sorrows and well you know gets drunk last night hearing yell back and forth I broke down feeling I've lost everything even though yes I wake up and I still see everything in my room I just feel like I did though like someone has died kind of lost even though I think my great grandma is still alive I just need advice from people who have been through this I thought I knew what to do but I am laying in bed feeling like horrible I guess and angered and obviously upset Idk what to do if you answer this I will answer any of your questions thank you

Alright so I am outside washing mums car and next thing you know I am texting my crush how I am washing the car and here how it goes

Me hey summer boy don't be a bummer

Him sorry I am home alone

Me lol good now you can't laugh at me

He later then comes outside without me asking or even expecting him to we text each other all the time and we always skateboard together one time he went to a musical I was a lead in and when it was over he found me and walked over to me and hugged me does he like or have I've been friend Zoned he said he liked a sixteen year old though he told me he doesn't think he likes her anymore and we were both giving eachother eye contact for more than a second and then I looked away does he like me or am I in he friend zone guys #naughty 💀

So my uncle who is seventeen and I were talking and well we somehow were talking about my crush who is a freshmen and I am in the the 8th grade and my uncle was saying well freshmen usually go for senior girls which I don't understand anyway my point is I'm obviously crushing on the freshmen I just don't know what to do an advice

Okay so I fell in love and so did the guy I fell in love with cause he fell in love with me were both the same age 14 he snapped a pic perhaps and send it to me and my folks found out he almost got twenty-five years to life and now there is a restraining order I've been looking up to see or find info all I know is the different types I am trying to figure out how to work around it yet again now that I think of it this is stupid

Okay some of my issues is that I am investigating for a friend because she has a restraining order against a family member who abuses her daughter along with I really would like to know for I also would like to know what would be the effects and what would happen ( basically effects) though yes please help me out I would love it if I could receive it

Okay some of my issues is that I am investigating for a friend because she has a restraining order against a family member who abuses her daughter along with I really would like to know for I also would like to know what would be the effects and what would happen ( basically effects) though yes please help me out I would love it if I could receive it