Ben Defelice

What I want to do is clean it up, and put an airsoft place in it. like put cover and a couple small buildings with windows and stuff.

I live in a small town and I wouldnt make people pay to play. It would all be free, just bring your gear.

there isnt much to do in this town, there are no malls. the only thing to really do is bowl and drink and do drugs. and we all know that bowling isnt good for everyone, and drugs are bad mkay.

there are houses around the field, but im thinking if i got permission from people around the field, and asked to local police I might be able to do it.

like i said this is a small town and I doubt anyone would really care either way. the field is just going to waste anyways.

I have no clue whats going on inside my head, but when someone talks to me words come out automatically. I feel confused about what to do when i get tired. some things i would be able to do without issue most of the time, like catching a baseball, I completely lose the ability to do. watching the ball into the glove becomes impossible. I consistently think of the mistakes I have made in the past and feel horrible, i cant let it go, it keeps haunting me even though it had no effect on my life or others. just saying something stupid and making a dumb joke. I cant forget about it for months, and then i still think about it for months more after. i burned the skin off my finger at work once, got burn spray and came back to work. the gloves i was wearing scratched it and i said ouch and someone said suck it up. i didnt know if they were kidding or not but its been literally 2 months, and it is just an old scar now, but I still think about it, not the burn but if i handled it wrong.

Yesterday we had a company softball game, and there were 5 teams. I started at 9am and was outside from then until about 3-4. after about 4 5 inning games straight in the heat i got tired and couldn't catch the ball anymore. I mean I'm a little bit overweight but I'm a rather athletic guy. I lettered all four years in wrestling and my 2 varsity years in football. i work as a line cook now but i just stopped being able to get the ball in my glove. I had to leave because i was embarrassed. i didn't show that i was embarrassed but i did leave. from the time i got there until i left i was uncomfortable around everyone though.

i'm really bad at math and ive been working at this stupid test forever. please help me =(

i'm really bad at math and ive been working at this stupid test forever. please help me =(

i'm really bad at math and ive been working at this stupid test forever. please help me =(

i'm really bad at math and ive been working at this stupid test forever. please help me =(

ive been doing this math problem for an hour i cant figure out how to do this, please help me :(

(x+7)^2=12 x=?

i coughed up some red and brown clot like things, i had the chills, fever, stuffed up, swollen glands, really sore throat, run down, and just about everything hurts to move. sometimes when i stand up i get light headed

im 16 Ive had pneumonia b4 ive had strep a few times before, i once had pneumonia and strep at the same time

i dont normaly get sick, first time this year of being sick