Ben

I have PTSD and i cannot remember chunks of my past (and much of what i can remember is traumatic). Sometimes i have nightmares about being raped, but i can't tell if it is just a metaphor for the powerlessness i felt or actual or memories bleeding through. It is hard not being able to trust my memories because i don't know the extent of the abuse or if what i am repressing keeps me oblivious to dangerous people or situations. I can't shake the suspicion that someone i know could have raped me and due to my minds inability to handle more emotional stress, i could be none the wiser about it and keep on interacting with that person as though nothing had gone wrong. Assuming i already had serious PTSD and was raped today, how fast would my mind suppress the memory of it to the point where i couldn't remember it at all? And is it possible my mind could cover it up with false memories even just moments after?

I have to admit I can't read whether this

girl is actually interested. She put her name into my phone as Andrea P which is probably not a good sign cause it means she doesn't trust me with her last name. But we also live in the same apartment building and she gave me her number after i said let me know if you ever need me and she said she probably wouldn't but she gave me her number anyway. How long should i wait to chat her up, do you think i should bother trying to get with her and whats a good excuse to have something to talk about

Its legal now recreationally, yet somehow impossible to ******* find. No one here seems to know a dealer, and everyone just goes to their friend who has a medical card. But the friends i know who have medical cards all live in opposite ends of the city. I m not spending 200$ for a medical card to smoke a plant i m already legally allowed to smoke, especially not in a city i m only going to spend 2 more months in. WHERE THE **** DO I FIND WEED IN VEGAS

And have either of them worn dresses in any of their films? I had a dream once where they were the comic relief and they both wore these dresses as poorly crafted disguises and i want to know where my subconscious may have gotten its inspiration from

Last year I was homeless for a couple months and before that i maxed out my credit cards just trying to pay rent. I haven't even had a steady source of income to feed myself, let alone keep up with the insane interest and late fees the account has been accruing. The interest payments alone are more than I will ever be able to pay in a month and unless i suddenly become a millionaire or win the lottery i will NEVER be able to pay off the balance, and even if i make a payment, that balance will still only get larger. I will never be eligible for a credit card again--i've already tried applying for a balance transfer card to no avail--, but i'm probably just going to give up on paying it off entirely because not that i have a job, there are much better things to spend my money on than literal debt slavery. What should i do?

cute little asian girl who i know is a virgin will let me touch her anywhere but her boobs or pussy but she giggles every time i look her in the eye. i know she wants to **** me cause she told me not to stop trying to but she pushes my hand away and giggles when i get close. she made me cover my eyes when i kiss her and she doesn t want to kiss me back, she basically freezes up. i want to make her feel more comfortable and less embarrassed. how do i do that?

Where the people directly elect their representatives, and the person with the most votes becomes president but the next 100 people who people voted for become senators, but both offices are filled by the same vote?

I have a bachelors degree in visual effects and motion graphics and i want to take a masters degree program that will help me write, produce and direct a show that i have already written. So preferably a program that will not only give me the skills to do so but meet the kinds of people who can make it happen.

i know there are people trying to bring back hellenism (not paganism or any of that poser wiccan bullcrap but actual hellenism) and i want to find people who practice the old ways... there are articles written about them but i cannot find them

i have applied to 1800+ places so volume is not the problem. i have walked in, called, filled out physical applications and online applications and tried temp agencies so the medium is not the problem. i have tried countless approaches from being overly friendly to sharing my hardships to bragging about myself to downselling myself so the approach is not the problem. i have analyzed every step of the process and tried to compensate for it from the applicant tracker systems to the recruiters to the hiring managers to the supervisors, and everywhere i look people keep blaming me like i'm doing something wrong when there is not even one definite option they give me that i can do right. i don't believe like those socialists do, that i supposedly have the "right to work" but i do believe that i have the right to the opportunity to work and i also think that i have not had a single opportunity extended to me. what can i do, if anything, to not die on the street because of things that were out of my control?

i really care about these things and i'm not doing enough... i need to get involved with people who care as fervently as i do in fighting for liberty... who don't think it is an outdated concept

i used to be able to create these surrealist things or draw and express what i feel and now i can t put a pen to paper and draw what i feel without breaking the tip or wanting to toss the whole thing aside... i can draw technical things, i can paint realistically, but i can t make what i feel anymore. how do i get that back?

i dont understand how these things are supposed to be an accurate representation of the american public when i can't even find them

like you know that trick advertisers and politicians do where they "spin" everything to their advantage and basically tug on peoples heart strings or emotions or literally say whatever will spin peoples perspectives to their advantage? what is a word for that kind of behavior?

i don't think i've ever seen very good porn acting, which is ridiculous because they stage all these scenarios like ******* the pizza guy or deciding to have a threesome with your girlfriends yoga teacher or "dad swapping" which is apparently a thing now, and you'd think at least one of these scenarios would have at least the emotional context of becoming a natural method acting experience for them and yet they suck at it. (of course literally but i mean it as in figuratively, they are terrible at acting these scenarios)

have they just never had sex in a scenario where they were not paid money to do it in front of a camera crew or has it just been so long since they had to naturally set the mood for coitus that they just don't know how to do it anymore without ridiculously cheesy and terrible dialogue