The Fame Mons†er

So today in town I decided to get some Henna done on my hand. I've heard about black henna and how it can scar you. I'm pretty certain it isn't black henna, as it isn't black. I asked her how long it would stay on for and if it's safe to use. She said about a week and that it is safe. I don't know any symptoms of having a bad reaction to it but ever since I got it done, I have arm ache. The aching is from my hand and all the way up my arm. Could this be to do with the Henna? thank you

My family life may be complicated to some, but I wouldn't change it for anything. I'm 17, I have 2 sisters and we all have different dads. My little sister alice who's 7 was my stepdads daughter, but me and my other sister were treated no different, he loved us all equally and would do anything for us. I live with my nan, my mum lives round the corner and my stepdad lived down the road. I saw him almost every day, and it's so hard still living here because everytime I walk down the street I'll have memories of being with him, and it isn't easy. He died on 23rd Novemeber 2012, at the age of 36. His funeral was a month after his death, and only 3 weeks ago we found out the cause of death. I have repeating nightmares about him, and it's draining me. I feel like I have nothing to live for. When does it get easier? it isn't any time soon. I just remember seeing that hearse, picking out the flowers to go ontop of his coffin, I rememeber everything. I remember all the good times I had with him. I'm so thankful for my age, because the past 3 years because instead of him just being a dad, we were able to become such good friends. We'd get drunk together, I'd go up to his house and have such a laugh with him. But I'm finding it too hard to cope, I'm crying as I write this because I just want him back. and it's pointless, because nothing can bring him back and his death keeps hitting me over and over. I remember going down to his house on the night he died to see his mum - people were there, his brother, his family. What I didn't know as I was about to leave the living room, was that the body was still in the house. and I ran out, he was upstairs and just about to be brought down. That's something that I can't forget. It makes me feel so sick. I guess what I'm trying to ask is, when does it begin to get better? does it get easier? does the pain go? I want everyone to know what an amazing man he was, he'd always have you laughing, but it just kills me inside to know that it's forever gone. I know that's life, people die, we all die eventually. It's just affecting me so much, I don't want to leave my bed, I'm so depressed. I'd like to leave this world and be with him. I'd be happy to die, I can't wait. I'll feel no more pain, and I can be with him again.

I suffer with severe depression but I don't know if this is anything to do with my sleep. I've always had really poor sleep and it's affected me for about a year, but it has become worse. My father died in Novemeber, and that's when the nightmares started - which has made my sleep even worse. I have about 4 nightmares a week, sometimes they repeat. I've had a few nightmares about my dad, they weren't pleasant. He'd died, but he'd come back to life and it was horrible and really graphic.

Also, one that i've had many times is - i'm going out with my mum and she parks the car on the long road near a field and the road is full of parked cars. I'm then leaving her and we're meeting back together in an hour. I go off but when i'm coming back to try and find her car, it isn't there and I'm walking up the street of cars and I see this hearse parked. It had my dads coffin in and the flowers with DAD spelt. I'm still trying to find my mum and I come across this building, I walk into it and it's a dark room with little light, I then walk through into the other room which is bright and there's a grey metal table with blood on it and plastic clear sheets. People keep brining in these dead bodies and laying them on the table, some of the people arent even dead yet and it's just so horrible. I've had this dream a few times, and I wake up in the middle of the night from it and it's stopping me from sleeping.

I also have a fear of public toilets, pipes and swimming pool filters (sounds odd, but I'm terrified) I keep having nightmares about being in a room full of this horrible public toilets and I can't get out of that room and the toilets start to over flow.

I don't know what I'm looking for in a answer, just some advice because i'm getting hardly any sleep and it's really messing up my day to day life and the way I'm thinking.

thank you

I don't really want to go into full detail, but I'm depressed and have been for a long time. I self harm and I've tried to end my life a few times. The thing is, I find it so hard to open up to anyone. I have to see a therapist every now and then but I really do refuse to open up. I hate talking about myself, I even hate writing this right now because I just feel like a waste of your time. I feel very trapped, I don't want to see anyone or do anything. I may as well not be here, there is very little point. I just wanted to know if you could recommend ways of improving this feeling? Just anything would help but I refuse to go on any medication, it's quite pathetic really. Thank you, sorry

I'd like to know how wind turbines can loose out on energy for example the energy put into the sound they make when close up.

Me and my friends are each having an evening of cooking a 3 course meal, I wondered if you could suggest some ideas, recipes and themes to what I could cook. I need a starter, main and dessert.

if you were to take 15 paracetamol each day for a two week period, would this lead to death?

I can't find any information on it

And your favourite song by them?

Mine is Lady Gaga :)

I woke up at 6am.

Me and a friend were wondering how to get press passes, we're starting up a website and we really need to know how to get them. Thanks

How can you earn money from a website - as in owning one?

Lady GaGa has added two dates at the o2 arena for december. The 16th and 17th. The 16th tickets went on sale a few days ago and sold out. I know the standing tickets for this date sold out in the presale, so does anyone know where I can get a presale code for the 17th? The tickets go on sale this thursday. Thank you for your time.

I'd love to either live in America or Italy.

and for what reasons?

Happy birthday Lady Gaga, love you.

Mine are :

1. Dance In The Dark

2. Paper Gangsta

3. Vanity

4. So Happy I Could Die

5. SummerBoy

I recently went to see Lady Gaga on her Monster Ball tour, when I went I had to get seated tickets. She's coming back to the UK in May and I want to get standing tickets but I'm unaware on how old you have to be to stand. It said on ticketmaster that you had to be 14+ but I read somewhere else it was 16+, could you please tell me how old you have to be? Thanks. BTW I'm 14.

So I just watched Lady GaGa Ft. Beyonce - Telephone and I think the video is AMAZING. Seriously beats all the others. What do you think of it?

http://www.youtube.com/user/LadyGagaVEVO#p/search/...

So I've just set up my old computer and I can't get the mouse or keyboard to work. I've got the connected, they just wont work. What shall I do? thanks.