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I go back aways . Once i bought some bananas back in the late 1980's . they were ripe . a few days later i went on a vacation for two weeks . Back home the skins were black . but i peeled them, they were very sweet but edible . for the past ten years of so if i buy ripe bananas , you peel them and they are grey and foaming rotten . organic are more expensive but last longer . i suspect planned obsolescence by gm to make them rot faster.

My family doctor stopped prescribing them. She said it was because i missed an appointment. I think it's the cdc and dea new rules on pain and anxiety medication. with these draconian laws there is an increase with pain patients cut off who commit suicide for relief. And benzo(klonopin, xanax, ativan, et al) patients who are dieing of grand mal seizures. there's a war on doctors now and too many are getting their licenses taken or going to jail for just rx ing opioids and/or benzos

I hate psychiatrists. I had a nervous breakdown when i was young. I was non violent, just crying a lot and on the floor.

first three days in the looney bin was great. no psych drugs. i felt like it was a rest, like sanctuary from my crazy family and world. after 3 days and light activity i felt like a new person, the future had promise once again. then this stupid psychiatrist puts me on a neuroleptic(abilify, seroquel, haldol, thorazine, those kind of drugs for violent patients. I had the side effect called akathisia and other life threatning "side effects. for 8 years i was ill at ease to say the least from that chemical torture.

then my 4th shrink gave me a benzo. first time in 8 yrs i could relax. so i've been on them ever since about 30 years.

Even my last psychiatrist told me that to detox a long term low dose user is almost impossible, much suffering. he said you are just going to maintain you. Sadly he moved back to Tawain. what should i do ?

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In my experience is that a 2 to 4 day vacation is much better on monday through friday. Especially during summer in the US, relatively nearby, by car(from around 50 to 300 miles). Theres less tourists like yourself. motels and hotels you have your pick of rooms, and sometimes at a lower price. Now if its in a big business city, weekends are best. but i mean like vacations to smaller towns with outdoor attractions, hiking, swimming, famous landmarks, health spas, and just getting to know the locals

note: i am a mere computer user. like a car driver, you open up the hood and its like another planet. so i may not be using the right terminology. be grateful for your tolerance. please feel free to ask what i mean by this or that

A fairly good independent computer repairman found my hardrive startup or boot "sector" was bad. We got a cheap used hardrive. He even had a portable diagnostice tool to test it from the person we bought it from. When i watched him put my laptop back together i noticed he saw some piece of plastic he thought was merely a half broken piece which merely had something to snap computer together along with the screws.

Well i think he may have broken off something had something to do with the wifi switch for the internal wifi hardware. he also took out a small flat thing with a chip in it he said was only for 56kbps over telephone line, forgot what you call it.

would not the easiest thing to do is just buy an external usb wifi device or one of those older bigger slide in slot things?

Correct me if im wrong, but it would seem that southern south america or sub saharan africa would be the place to be. At least survive the initial blasts and fall out.

It would seem to me, that north and central land based icbm nuclear missles in usa and russia would go over the arctic. but ofcourse there are sea and air carried nukes too, and russian and us nuke icbm ground based outside of either country(?). it would be good to see a map or video that had arrows, etc where all this horrible stuff is coming from, god forbid!

I find it hypocritical that people who have never experienced dying(of course) think it right that the dying patient should just linger and die a slow painful death. the lifting of spirits by pain meds, anti depressants, and anxiety medication just don t work after awhile or others complain they just don t like being in a fog from the pain drugs. I saw a documentary of a woman in another country who decided to cut her dying experience short. for a few days before she ended her life. she did things that made her happy and spent time with friends and family and talking as if in the moment and laughing instead of her upcoming death. She seemed happier and she died with a smile on her face with euthanasia. Since i live in the united states and mercy killing is illegal. I would do the same thing she did before its too late and in the last stages. what you think?