is there anyone out there who really fears God and what he allows to happen and yet love him?

In a sense I fear Him, but not as a judge who will condemn me to an eternal lake of fire. It's awe, a fear due to the One who created all things, and keeps all things rolling along. I mean, I couldn't even push a hoop or roll a ball for long without giving up. But God. He's so awesome. But loving Him and obeying Him because of that love overcomes the fear that we would naturally have of Him when in His presence.