Who was the first person to break your heart?

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My mother broke mine. She's not a terrible person. I don't even know if she knew that she was doing it. I've never said anything because it's been years since we've had problems. I don't want to love my mother. I'm probably a terrible person for saying that but she doesn't make it easy. We've never had an easy relationship and I can only guess why. For most of my life, I was made to feel like I was never good enough. It hurts me to even think about it. I learned at a very young age that no matter how much it hurts you won't die from a broken heart even if you sometimes wished you did. I haven't forgotten what it feels like. You never do. You can't breathe and your chest feels like its being crushed by some unseen force and all you want is for it to go away. It's a hidden scar, never seen but always there. I was never pretty enough, never smart enough, never skinny enough to please my mother and as a child I knew my mother didn't like me. It's better now, but I had to work hard and go through a lot of tears to get to this place. A child should never know what pain feels like and there are so many different kinds. I just want to know if there is anyone out there who went through a hard time and couldn't talk about it.

Asheypooh · Accepted Answer

YES!
and mine was with my mother first also. i am 15 and because of my mother acting like that towards me i decided to go out and look for love in the streets and getting involved in things that i knew within myself i didnt need to be in. but because i felt no one was there for me and no cared i just did me. my mother is not a terrible person either but her actions and emotions can be terribe and it sucks. we have been struggling since she got married to my step father about 4 years ago and our relationship keeps tumbling downhill and it makes me want to cry and runaway but i realized that that solves nothing. i am the type of person that does not wear my feeling on my face and you have to litterally cut it out of me to talk and i didnt realize that until a while ago. but i just finally found someone to turn to and i was happy and i am now fixing that relationsip wit my mama and i hope it gets better. 



ps....your words "I learned at a very young age that no matter how much it hurts you won't die from a broken heart even if you sometimes wished you did. I haven't forgotten what it feels like. You never do. You can't breathe and your chest feels like its being crushed by some unseen force and all you want is for it to go away. It's a hidden scar, never seen but always there." i love how you just put your feelings in words... thats exactly how i feel!

daker · Answer

I'm a Cancer Sun Leo Moon Scorpio Rising. I acquired my center damaged via a Scorpio male. It was once nearly three years. Can't rather describe how I suppose. I nonetheless maintain him and sweetness how he is doing even as.. there are somethings I are not able to fail to remember. Haven't favored/desired any person else given that him. I spoke to a Cap somewhat even as after and remorse simply assembly him. Our "friendship" if you'll name it that's lengthy long past via now.Imagine we have been speaking for three months and he is performed adequate in so little time that I remorse him and stopped taking him significantly via month two. But they're such assholes I surprise how they maintain the peers they have got. I do not have a crisis with the ladies, simply the men. Never once more for a Cap.

Anonymous · Answer

im sorry that ur relationship isnt close and u had to go thro that...Iv only been in fights w my mother where shes said hurtful things....UM i feel this girl is younger than u but maybe ud find some commonalites or could give advice

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anthony · Answer

no one at all

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