minor incest as a kid?

Whatever happened when you were a tween, if you've tried to blind yourself, you need to be seeing a psychiatrist to help you sort things out, not asking a bunch of strangers for their opinions.

Your big sis, being 17, should have known better than to encourage you with this type of behaviour..You were 12 so you were innocent in the whole affair however your sister was not so her innocence is questionable.

I think you should just put it down to a learning curve, youve certainly not dont anything wrong and shouldnt really let something you done such a long time ago play a part in your relationships today. Any one who knows you will know that you have a habit of staring and they will also know that you dont mean anything by it. Dont change anything about your behaviour, You are still young and are learning all the time. Any one you like a lot will know how you are, what you do, and how you act with women and they will get used to you in time.

I don't think you give enough details in your description of voyeurism and exhibitionism. If she was showing herself off to you in a lewd way, and you were enjoying the view, I would say that's pretty normal for you, in your inquisitive youth to want to check everything out. If you have Autism, then I'm not sure anything that happened would contribute to that condition. I had sex with a cousin when I was a young girl. I feel like that didn't ruin me as far as sex, or my personality. If you just accept your past as your past, and get on with your future, you will be a much better human being.

This does not count as incest as there was no sexual touching/intercourse. BUT your sister was a lot older than you and should not have messed with your head in this way especially as you were on the verge of puberty. Do not beat yourself up about what happened in the past. Maybe a while in counseling would help if there is no one you can talk to about this as it has obviously left you with worries and confusing thoughts.

I believe every family in the world did the same cause of dirty porn we learn while we grew up with . You know , such as dad or brother hide their porn magazine. Once we look into it and we see sister,s body daily. Sometime we see sister walk out of shower with their underwear and bra on . Such a courious little boy could,nt help it . Feeling or need to touch such a body can lead to incest in the future . I believe that what happen ?

I don't understand... did you do the incest... or did you live it...

I went to the gym, people were naked, and I stared comparing myself... try to learn to be discreet and looking with the peripheral vision, even if it,s more blur than moving your eyes directly on the person, or at least try to move your face away and turn only your eyes.

Don't encourage any behavior about little girls or boys and even if you stare, it's natural... but try to be discreet and don't touch without permission, be polite about it... and you're healthy.

Sometimes I space out when I need to eat or am tired... just try to stare where there is no people when it happens.

alot of kids try things with siblins its normal, but your sister being 17 hmm , anyway yeah it could be to do with what happened because you're not letting go, , just try to forget or get over what happened when you was a kid, what you did when you was 12 isnt really much to be ashamed about, unless you have intercourse with her while your this age, thats weird (but still very common actually, normal to fantasize anyway), plus you're male we all stare haha :), if you're trying to get at are you being perverted staring at lasses in a sexual way then no, im guessing you're a teenager, with hormones going crazy and all you think about is destroying bambi (bambi the pornstar not the cartoon deer thing)

What you went through as a child is actually more common than most people realize. Maybe you ARE leering, maybe you aren't. Perhaps some counseling will help?