College dillema: Should I stay or should I go?

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College dillema: I urgently need opinions of what I should do?

I will try to keep this as short and to the point as I possibly can without losing the severity and urgency of the situation. This particular issue is quite humiliating, discouraging, and intimidating.

I am currently a freshman at my state university. I just moved in on Saturday, and Wednesday will be my first day of classes. However, I absolutely hate where I am, and I say that with a heavy conscience. Just to give some background info, I was very academic in high school and graduated magna *** laude. I applied to several universities in various states and got accepted to most. However, I could not afford to attend them due to out of state/private school tuition. I received large scholarships, but they just weren't enough. I am not eligible for financial aid based off of my parent's income.

So why not go to my state school? Well, f moved to this state during my early childhood, and I have ALWAYS disliked it here. I have never fitted in with the culture or the people. My state school is located in a dangerous community, with very little to do on or off campus. The infrastructures on campus are very old and run down. I currently have THREE roommates and no air condition, and the whole floor shares two showers, two toilets, and two sinks. However, this state school is highly accredited, the opportunities are advantageous, I can afford the tuition, and I have been accepted in a highly selective scholars program. My biggest problems are that I don't feel safe here, and I am not happy here.I cannot imagine being focused here. I am lacking the connection that you should have with your university, and my gut tells me that I need to get far away from here.

Therefore, my question is, should I stay here or should I go to community college with the hopes of transferring elsewhere? I certainly understand the value of ducation and I am aware of the thousands of people who would love to take my place, seeing that I am a daughter first generation college graduate parents. I have been trying all year to change my thinking and to give this place a try, but as each day passes I feel more strongly about disliking it here. I am afraid that if I leave, I will have passed up a wonderful opportunity that I might never get again. My father is angry with me and threatens that if I leave I will be on my own tuition wise after I get my A.A. I fear that I might end up completing my A.A and still not being able to afford an education elsewhere and end up right back here. However, I am also very afraid that I will stay here and be unhappy,and will regret this decision for years to come, as well as not performing well due to the lack of motivation. Should I just suck it up and stick it out here? Or should I try to find a place where I will be more comfortable?I always dreamed of receiving a college education, and I want to enjoy this time in my life. I must make a decision before classes start on Wednesday.

Thank you for reading this, and for giving your insight. I truly am looking for answers at a very difficult imIMn my life. Thank you .