Christians, am I actually supposed to abandon my family?

I'm not actually a Christian because I'm too immoral and angry all the time, and I have a few "demons" to overcome that themselves borderline on idolatry, as they stand between me & God, so I don't feel worthy of calling myself a Christian. Thing is, I have a family full of zombies. Typical Illuminati-worshiping, dumbed down, demoralized, socially-conditioned, walking-dead zombies who don't know or even want to know how reality works outside of the Holly Wood occult fantasy world. I don't judge them but they judge the hell out of me all the time for being a theologian. They ridicule me because I know more about science, philosophy & history than I do about mainstream entertainment or pop culture. I can make small talk by watering down my vocabulary & pretending to relate but my family sees through it & they have no problem putting me on the spot in front of people to break me down to their level I guess because they feel insecure that I understand more about reality than they do about the magical mind-controlling TV machine. Every time I'm not around them, I become at peace but when I'm around them, it's like being in Hell because they're into everything cultural, which we all know is satanic, pagan & perverted beyond reason.

Since I quit smoking weed & drinking, my conscience is sensitive so I can't stand to see kids in my family doing the symbolism of mankind's satanic oppressors & singing along lyrics that are socially-engineered to corrupt them. I bite my tongue unless it gets out of hand but they won't allow me to be myself, like they all continuously try to get me to drink or have sex with random women that I don't know & I left that lifestyle behind me & I don't expect them to understand, the more government-regulated society's evils become, but Jesus said you must be willing to hate your family to follow God. I don't know exactly what that means, like if it's literal. I love the individual members of my family but I hate the collective body only in the sense that I don't fit into it. They love me too but instead of trying to uplift me in my beliefs, they try to force me to sear my own conscience so I can have more "fun" like them. I don't consider evil to be fun, fun for me is normal sanity & reason, not spiritual self-destruction & egoism.

It's not just family, it's everybody I go around. I'm one of those "cool" people who dresses casual & seems like the young boy next door or just the regular neighborhood friend, but my experiences have matured me beyond the point of no return as far ads esoteric knowledge. But I can easily get away from friends, I can't just up & get away from family unless it's final. What should I do?

Atheist zombies, what would you do if your religious family kept forcing you to become sane, sober, educated & moral?