I know you don't find your self worth thru accomplishments but thru God but...?

First I dont even know how that's possible.

Like, in some book I read it said "what good is it that the world knows you but God doesnt"... I have huge esteeem issues.

I can listen to the lies that everyone tells me- "oh, Patricia, you have a kind heart, you're smart," etc. First, you can call anyone smart I have this thing in which I feel like I need to prove my worth thru everything that I do and cuz I'm so young and people are in awe of that. (Somehow ppl want to choose the younger ppl with the same qualities so)

anything i should do whats the truth

I mean, I dont even trust or believe God anymore because of all these plans I made, of all these things Im gonna do