Is it bad I feel this way?

Okay so basically, I think I hate my father. He has severe anger issues and is abusive and I can't speak out about it. Today he saw the fan was on and destroyed the really expensive dining room table (which was the only one we have) and is just always screaming at us for no reason. He threatens to remove me from my school (which is a really expensive, prestigious private school) even though he does not help in any way to pay for it. I'm about to be a junior and when I graduate I will most likely go to university in germany, partly influenced by my experiences with him. My mom was an alcoholic and we used to live with her, and I can say right now that even with her faults, I was much happier with her. She is not in a position to take us. God, I hate him and hate what he's done to me. Are these feelings bad? I can't forgive him. I just can't.