deep loneliness?

I never had your problem - when i got divorced and moved out with my 3 children i started dating immediately. I did not want to get married ever again, just wanted casual relationship. So i did not have any big expectations , neither i pressured men into anything. I had many dates and travelled a lot. Then i found my now husband. So what can i tell u - maybe u re too serious and intense with trying to find yourself a partner. Maybe u should take it easier and try just dating, no pressure. And if u do nor like smth in a man u re dating - just dump him. D not try to find explanation and excuse for his behaviour - if u do not like anything dump, dump, dump. Thus there wont be any heart aches - u wont be all invested in him and wasting your precious years. Good luck.

Also i never felt less of a woman because i had kids, neither any man ever saw it as an obstacle. Of course i always informed them during first 3 min of conversation, that if they did not want a sngle mom they could retreat immediately. The most interesting thing nobody ever did. Really.

That could be your problem your too active and have to many friends which is scaring decent guys off. Most men dont like competing for your time I have dumped women for that very reason and they were women I really did like but felt they didn't have space for me in their lives and that I really wasn't a priority. Find a guy who is decent and show him he is important to you.

Ps I have been very low in my life sometimes and nearly ended it all but am glad I didint remember things do get better if you put the effort in to change the things you want to change