Why was I cursed to be this ugly ?

I'm jeff and I'm 28 years old , and I may very well be on of the ugliest people on the face of this planet. In 28 years I've never been called attractive, and honestly I can see why . I have a tumor over my right eye that's been there for as long as I can remember , it forces my right eye to be smaller and lower than my left eye . The good new is that it's going to permanently shut my right eye so people won't notice it first . I have terrible skin even though I wash it every single day and use the best medication the doctor has to offer for it so I still have a ton of acne even though I'm nearly 30 years old . My family has called me ugly for as long as I can remember , and always told me I'll never manage anything in this life because of my looks . I have exactly 0 friends because people have always avoided me , they laugh and point in my direction and would burst put laughing when I walked near them . I went to the gym for 8 straight years ,5 days a week, got a personal trainer, and still nothing's changed. I've never had a date , hell I've never even really talked to a girl because as I said earlier people don't really talk to me . I'm considering suicide because nothing seems to work and the world will probably be better without me .