Automaton

OK. I'm like a Freelance Artist and writer by profession, needless to say this **** ain't working out. At one point things were going good, I was near being published... my art started to get recognition and in a flash it all came to nothing. It was entirely out of my control, but to make a long story short people all of a sudden changed their minds and went in other directions. This really got to me and ever since I can't even do art anymore.

So it got me thinking, all this time I wasted, I'm 28 years old now and all the work I did, I have pretty much nothing to show for it. So now I'm like, okay maybe I should just go to college/university even though I stubbornly don't want too. I have been thinking, what can I do? What careers would be the best options. To be honest, my writings could be said to be "esoteric psychology". I am very much so a man of the thinking of Carl Jung and G.I. Gurdjieff/P.D. Ouspensky, but individual to myself. Now with such interest, one would think, AHH psychology is where you should major. To be honest I would really do this, out of the things I see, my attention moves to psychology. The problem is for this type of field, it is only worthwhile if you are willing to continue on beyond the associate degree ... heck it may really only pay off if you go all the way up to get your doctorate. I have been told by different people that I shouldn't care about the time it will take, with my type of mind and vision, they could see me as a professor. But I am 28 years old ...

I really do have an aim that goes beyond just making money, I just wish I had discovered these things when I was 18/17. But what can you do, took 10 years of learning and growing to see what I need to do.

Thoughts on this confused state I am in?

OK. I'm like a Freelance Artist and writer by profession, needless to say this **** ain't working out. At one point things were going good, I was near being published... my art started to get recognition and in a flash it all came to nothing. It was entirely out of my control, but to make a long story short people all of a sudden changed their minds and went in other directions. This really got to me and ever since I can't even do art anymore.

So it got me thinking, all this time I wasted, I'm 28 years old now and all the work I did, I have pretty much nothing to show for it. So now I'm like, okay maybe I should just go to college/university even though I stubbornly don't want too. I have been thinking, what can I do? What careers would be the best options. To be honest, my writings could be said to be "esoteric psychology". I am very much so a man of the thinking of Carl Jung and G.I. Gurdjieff/P.D. Ouspensky, but individual to myself. Now with such interest, one would think, AHH psychology is where you should major. To be honest I would really do this, out of the things I see, my attention moves to psychology. The problem is for this type of field, it is only worthwhile if you are willing to continue on beyond the associate degree ... heck it may really only pay off if you go all the way up to get your doctorate. I have been told by different people that I shouldn't care about the time it will take, with my type of mind and vision, they could see me as a professor. But I am 28 years old ...

I really do have an aim that goes beyond just making money, I just wish I had discovered these things when I was 18/17. But what can you do, took 10 years of learning and growing to see what I need to do.

Thoughts on this confused state I am in?

Need help?

...attention rest upon?

It was said that this alone could destroy the hate that people have for another and induce in them a sense of obligation and responsibility, IF this thought becomes a constant pillar in your mind. Each person is no different than one who has a disease which their death is inevitable -- we only have now, so what will we do?

Who am I?

What am I?

Am I my shirt?

Am I my emotion?

Am I my reflection?

Am I my music?

Am I my computer?

Am I my feelings?

What am I at my core and how can I come to know this "I" better? Or will I even know it before the inevitable?

I am even here?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=narHqBWkauI&feature...

hmmmm??

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lnFBhAietac&feature...

Thoughts?

Thoughts?

If so, where will you return to, the earth? The ether? The Light? The Depth? The Silence? The Nothing?

... there is nothing to stand on. My foundation that situated me, made me stand erect, is no longer there. How does one deal with this event in their life and has anyone experienced the state of feeling as though what you thought you knew was flawed and having so much invested in it, as it is pulled under from your feet, you feel as though there is nothing keeping you up -- that everything now is in question?

This question isn't about anything that I am going through, btw. But I thought it interesting to mention.

http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2783/4293867094_4d5...

I have a long way too go, ran out of paints I need and need to buy different colors to do what I want, so I was forced to stop for now. The picture is low res it seems. Best I could do.

And this is the drawing version, although this was a quick sketch done on the computer and I never took a picture of the painting when it was completely in sketch form. More than likely it will end up looking very different from this, as it was just to get a concept of it all.

http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2692/4293363245_165...

http://farm5.static.flickr.com/4029/4293293087_d24...

I know two of those symbols are the symbol for male and female, but I dont know what the others are that surround the star of david in the center.

Thank you for the help

If it is not then one must look upon themselves, ask themselves do they really think they could create a better world, then the one we have? There is no problem, all is as it should be.

Ask yourself why do you want everyone to live within your perspective, to be as you want them to? And would it truly be good for everyone to be the same?

This is a bit of a trick question and has many perspectives. But what I will already predict is that many will say it never changes because of their association to "religious people" and their subjective morality. But keep in mind that many in religions rarely live what their religion upholds to its highest and central ideals and in fact many religions have made up doctrine in order to "get out of" the obligation to strive to be Moral in everyway -- like Jesus died for my sins and God always forgives me so if I do bad or wrong I am forgiven and still go to heaven etc.

Thoughts?

... which is not subjective? Through developing under the conscience? Through developing ones consciousness, so that one in thought, desire, word, and deed always upholds The Good -- where as Plato said,

"[...] and when he has bound together the three principles within him, which may be compared to the higher, lower, and middle notes of the scale, and the intermediate intervals—when he has bound all these together, and is no longer many, but has become one entirely temperate and perfectly adjusted nature, then he proceeds to act [...]; always thinking and calling that which preserves and cooperates with the harmonious condition, just and good action, and the knowledge that presides over it, wisdom [...].

Plato, The Republic, Book IV

A man is no longer many in himself but a temperate adjusted whole (quelling the mutiny of mind)?

Assuming that there is one, how does a man gain Objective Morality?

...reflects what is happening? Can you be truly honest with yourself and say your morality is the same, constantly, and your desires, words, deeds, and thoughts all move according to said morality 24/7, as it is continuous state in you?

They aren't synonymous.

Thoughts?

Thoughts?

Thoughts?

What does it all mean?

Or are you both?