Very Sad

I am sick and tired of them harassing me and giving me tickets. I want to get a gun so that next time they stop me for some bull**** reason I can pull it out and put it in my mouth and kill myself right in front of them. THE PAIN IS SO DEEP IT HURTS!!!!!!!!

UGGGGGGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There's so much stuff I went through in the past, like high school teachers, principals, and guidance counselors who put me down and I've thought about killing them. The thing is, I'm nice and I don't like that type of stuff. So how can I overcome that stuff and move on? And how is a therapist or counselor appointment set up?

I keep thinking back to my high school days 2003-2007 and how mean some of my teachers and the guidance counselor were to me. It made me so mad. I got treated badly by the students, but couldn't even seek help from the teachers or administrators because they were untrustworthy as well.

What can I do to stop feeling this way. I have thought about killing specific teachers and the guidance counselor and it hurts so much.

Okay, it's a long story, but this is about the high school I went to. I was extremely despised by the general population of the school and I was too apathetic about it that I kept to myself after school.

The other guys, I keep looking at their facebook pages and I see that now, 7 years later, they are living better lives than I am and I think it's partly because of the pain they caused me back then. Should I just kill myself to not feel this way anymore?

I bet they're not even thinking about me right now. What can I do to overcome this pain? It was so bad that I couldn't even tell the teachers or the guidance counselors, because they were part of it too. I've even thought about killing the teachers and the guidance counselor because at least they should have known better than to treat me the way they did. I no longer want to kill them, but it really hurts that those I should have run to for help were even worse.

I don't want to hear any nonsense about lung cancer or any of that other health class b.s. I want people who actively smoke to tell me if it helps with stress. I really need something to help me and I will smoke if I have to.

When I went to Italy and Netherlands, I didn't leave the airport. Can I still say I have been to those countries? Also, the only time I have been to Texas was when I was stuck at the DFW airport terminal for three hours this past May. Can I still say I have been to Texas?

I want to meet a woman who can meet my emotional needs and satisfy my physical needs as well. I really want someone who will love spending time with me. True love is not real, so I don't want a soul mate or any of that Valentine's Day b.s. I just want someone who will be there.

I can easily talk to her about random things, but when it comes to actually telling her that I like her, I get scared about what will happen afterwards.

While I'm checking out my stuff and with many people behind me, I'm gonna proceed to ask her what time she gets off and if she could go watch a movie with me at that time.

Do you think that's a good idea? I'm thinking about doing it tomorrow since it'll be Friday and that's when people go to movies and I might take her to the new Apes movie or the Transformers. Which do you think is better?

In life, I feel that we all should be confident and proud of who we are as individuals. And in that instance, we should join a group and feel proud of who we are as a group. Well, I keep thinking that people do not want me to be part of their group because I come off as arrogant or too self assured.

I had a girl who I really liked A LOT! but she let me go because instead of asking her out, I kept B.Sing. all the time about other things. I regret that a lot to this day. It happened three years ago, and now I'm going crazy thinking about her. I still have her number and I might call her and tell her about me and how much I like her now and I liked her then. I am hoping she still has the same number. I think my arrogance might have killed it for me. I don't want to go on through life being that way, but I feel that I need to have some kind of worthiness to succeed in life otherwise I would be even worse off.

it's called My Literary Genius and it's found at www.myliterarygenius.com I want to know if anyone can tell me how to contact the author and thank him. Normally, how do people contact website authors?

I have heard it before on this forum.

I grew up in Uganda and was waiting for the medal ceremony. Now I missed it because of NBC.

Is there anyway I can watch it online?