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Im angry and irritable most of the time. I always had anxiety, insomnia and anger issues which leads to violence.Sometimes i feel happy but its usually very short lived. I think me being sad comes from being lonely. I have no girlfriend (a few failed attempts) never had a first kiss, still a virgin etc. Ive got no real friends. i used to but i pushed them away and i got this guilt inside. My new friends are very one dimensional. I cant talk to my parents about how i feel coz they dont care they always brush me off. I tried counseling but it doesnt really help and theyre too scared to talk to me. Sometimes i find happiness through alcohol, buying things, eating sweet stuff but its short lived.

I wear all 3 but which one looks the best in your opinion?

I stay up all night and sleep all day but today i cant. I hav a boring life and do nothing besides listen and write rap. my mates have girlfriends and dont wanna hang out as a group anymore. I used to work out a lot but now i never have energy. All the fun stuff i used to enjoy gets me introuble so i dont do that no more but now im stuck with a shitty boring life

I'm not going into detail but basically i enjoy doing those things and i know it aint normal. Ive stopped doing bad things but im still tempted. Outside of that i live a lonely and boring life. I cant get a girl to like me, friends never seem to stick around. Ive got no hobbies that interest me. Ive got no motivation for anything. Basically im a loser but deep down im sensitive and almost crying while im writin this. Sorry if my writings bad i dont do well at school.

Criminals still walk the streets with guns, kill eachother and rob people but responsible citizens have to go through a ton of bull **** to own a gun. And we cant even use guns for protection agains meth head home invaders.

Im australian btw and i think trumps a good bloke and i understand why more people voted for him then crooked hillary. But the media makes it look like everybody hates him. Pretty much every article about him is negative. Celebrity's hate him but they're probably made too because they have a big effect on fragile minds. I know the media brainwashes but they're not very good at hiding it.

I mean I only smoke occasionally. Like maybe 1 a month or 1 every 2 months

I mean sometimes im hanging with my friends we tend to get a bit rowdy and do dumb ****...... I like to have fun lol. But do girls like this or do they probably think im a crazy motherfùcker?

I haven't. But guys who have does it work?

Once i lit a cigar and some chick i was tryna hit on at the time told me she thinks so.

I completed grade 10 and somehow passed maths and english so now I have all my qualifications to apply for the army. Schools way too boring so im thinking about dropping out and getting a job until im old enough to join. That way i'll be making some money aswell

When I pee i dont feel empty. I feel a constant urge to piss. The doctors said my urine is normal and the scans came back normal aswell. But i still occasionally have these problems. Especially after a very long road trip.

If you did, how did it feel?

I'm happy to say I have, and it felt great.

I'm just thinking about getting a used 22Lr to save money because buying a gunsafe and gun license is expensive (im australian). Is buying second hand a good or a bad idea? Thanks.