how can i get help with somethin thats been their since i was 12?
jake died then the reason i don't think i can get over him is that he was shot long ago in front of me and ive tryed to get him off my mind and i haven dreams of him there and sometimes what hurts me the most is that i have flashbacks of the day when that happened all the way from the beggining and to the very endd he didn't make it by the time that the ambulance got their
and it hurts so bad i don't know what to do on top of the other bad things that happened i don't think i can my heart hurts all the time and he wasn't my husband but he did ask me long ago if i would ever marrie him and i said yes he didn't propose b/c we could be goin to fast but i didn't care and anyway i dated him for 4 years and i always thought about him and i remember all the great moments we had together past the bad one's i miss him more and more everyday when i have nothin elses to do but lay and cry b/c i miss him sometimes more than i can handle at night i miss his hugs and him tellin me everythings going to be alright