Am I overreacting? Please I need your opinions?
I just moved into my boyfriends house, he had shared this house with one other serious girlfriend. Im not too thrilled about that, but I have been kinda putting it into the back of my mind, until yesterday. I decided to wash the sheets since I hadn't done it since I moved in. Once I got the mattress pad off I could see old "love stains" on the side of the bed where I sleep. Obviously I know he had sex with his ex's, because I had sex with my ex's too. (again im not thrilled about it but oh well I cant do much) It just really made me sick and sad and made me feel bad to see all those old stains and they were all on my side of the bed, so im guessing that im sleeping on what used to be her side too. I just cant stop thinking about this now. I was able to put it in the back of my mind but cant anymore after I saw all those stains. I honestly dont even want to sleep in that bed....at all. (I mean I would at LEAST buy new sheets before I even let my boyfriend sleep in a bed that I shared with an ex..but I would wanna buy a whole new bed.) My boyfriend and I will be getting engaged soon, and then obviously married, I dont wanna start our new life making love and sleeping on his past. I am willing to buy new sheets and mattress/bed too, I mean I dont just expect him to buy it all. Am I overreacting? Please, I love this man with all my heart but this is really bothering me. I would like some of your opinions.
And yes, I know the bed is just an object and Im sure they shared a lot more things around the house together, but the bed is just important to me since its where we make love the most, and obviously we sleep there together every night.
Please remember I said that I wouldnt expect him to stay in a bed I shared with my ex's.