It feels like my mom never even existed ?!?

Dear Hello,

I am sorry you lost your Mom at such an early age. She didn't go by choice, as she lost something that was more important to her than her life, and that is you. Always know that she is watching over you, and you can talk to her whenever you wish - she will always be there for you dear.

I know losing a parent at any age is horrible - but to lose a parent at such a young age, is even worse. Believe me, if she had her way, she would still be here for you in the physical world. It wasn't her choice. She wants you to carry on with your life, to be the best person you can be, and to remember her the best you can. The only reason you are not normal, is because you lost your Mom at such a young age. Most kids don't have to go through that. But, as far as you grieving, do what you have to do. If you have to, go to your room, close the door, and have a good cry. Sometimes, that will let out stress, and you will feel a bit better.

If you want to talk about this more, feel free to contact me through my profile (click on my avatar to the left of this message, and you will see my profile, and a way to contact me.

Be strong dear, and my prayers are with you !!

There is no right or wrong way to grieve. Whatever works for you, is the right way for you. No one else has to agree as long as you are grieving, and also getting on with your own life. Your life continues - so don't let her death get in the way of your success. She would NOT want that !!!

You are subconsciously suppressing your emotions ... (my opinion , don't take it as some diagnose)

That happens to a lot of people ... So it's "normal" , at least it happened to me. Later in life emotions took a hard hit on me

grief comes in many forms and that is your way of coping. I think you have it right because you know she was your mum but thinking like you do you have cut out any bad times. you have put her on a pedestal and that is great

It's normal...for you. I am sorry for your loss. If you want to remember her, look at pictures, talk to people who knew her, etc.