What about others , I see no end to my problems, wife dead.?

Indeed there is no end to problems my friend, I too have lost my father last year and have been raised with many ups and downs since childhood. But yeah still sruviving, miracle of life i guess. This is what life teaches us i presume. To remain firm in your self irrespective of what stands in your way, just keep on moving on.... :)

Jesus.

Romans 10:9

Acts 3:19.

They have support groups you can meet with You can make friends with people in these groups. Check at your local church for other groups.

Also I recommend you exercise every day. The one thing you can save

is your own health and you will feel positive after you do it.

You have to start somewhere.. don't be scared .. if you don't look you won't find.

i think you need a professional help , and you need to know someone else how can replace her

You have chance to find more cute girl.