I've hid my feelings for my whole life basically.?

As the title says, I've hid, basically all of the painful things I've experienced, and how they made me feel. I never talked about them for the most part with anybody cause no one made me feel comfortable talking to them about that stuff, and I felt like I could just kind of leave it all in the pas tand live in the present.

In the last few years, I've finally realized the impact my past has had on me and have slowly but surely opened up in my willingness to talk about this stuff, but as I have, I've realized that most people don't want to talk about this stuff in turn with me. I didn't go through anything CRAAZY insane, but I experienced many difficult things and my life in general was usually a struggle. I'm not saying it's the worst by any means though.

My question is, how do I deal with all of these feelings I now want to talk about but can't find anyone willing to listen? I'm not sure therapy will help me since I already know how this all effects me and I'll know the therapist is only listening to me cause it's their job and they're just there to do their job.

What can I do? Thank you!