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I reside in the Caribbean and the mental health services here are extremely poor. It is so bad that doctors cannot pin point what I have - I've heard major depression, bipolar type two, dysthymia, and now borderline. I am considering to check myself into a mental health facility in the US for treatment but I do not have information about if foreigners can use the facilities, which ones are best for my 'diagnosis', costs, and location. Can someone give me some information or links please? Thank you

He's been emotionally despondent towards me and my family for as long as I've known. He never took my issues seriously, his first response is to get angry, defense or offensive, and argue. He never praises any of us for the good things we've done, never invested a long term consistent interest in our lives, what values we hold, what friends we have, our future. I can't remember a time that he's ever really been supportive or even present for anything in my life really, he just happen to be breathing in the same house as me. He's a good financial provider, and may have an incredible insight, but it does not help that he an one of my brothers and him have been doing everything together for the past 4 or 5 years. Mainly because that brother took an interest in his business, which is the only thing my father really invested his time in. Other than drinking. (He's not a drunk, but he likes drinking and T.V.)

I was recently diagnosed with bipolar depression type 2, and been having mild anxiety issues. I'm on medication, but he still thinks that my depression is just a 'phase'. You know, something teenagers go through. But I'm 21 now. It's been 7 years now that he's believed my depression is a 'phase'. I am so disappointed in him.

How am I supposed to forgive him? I have always had low self esteem, insecurities, and chronic depression, but I believe that his neglect is one of the primary causes for all these issues I have. However, I'm trying to find peace. I am trying not to hate the brother he's paying attention to. I know not to expect him to change; its been over 20 years that he has been like this. So does that mean I not tell him how I feel? What am I really left to do here? Its very hard to find a father figure to take his place....what do I do?? I want to be able to move on with my life..

He is a friend of my pal, and I hardly know him, maybe for 6 months, we hardly talk. We went down to some bars and clubs two nights ago, and I flirted non verbally with him, he picked up on this and touched my sides, my collar bone,brushed away my hair, and held my hand, at different points in time throughout the night.. but as the night went on less of this occurred, til we parted ways - as if nothing happened. We did not talk about it since.

What does this mean? even while he has a girlfriend... Am I supposed to take this seriously or was he just flirting back? I think he's a bit slow, because I asked him at one point 'Don't u have a girlfriend?' and his response was 'Yeah..why?' ._. I don't want to ask him, I feel as if its a game of cat and mouse here, but should I really expect anything from some guy who's taken?

I understand everything, how the primordial follicles are made, secondary oocytes, corpus luteum, and such

but what I cannot wrap my head around is that the primary oocyte halts at meiosis I , prophase I. then at puberty, it develops and undergoes meiosis I completely, but stops at metaphase I of meiosis II, and it is still called a haploid? Im not sure what Im saying, so can someone explain to me, how can the oocyte not complete meiosis but still end up being a haploid? how is that possible?

I am studying for exams, and I noticed that most of the topics i need to know comes from sociology. Does it have any advanced spanish books on sociology to download? Or notes?

Yes im resort to downloading because my country does not have the resources for this particular area. Any help will be appreciated

Muchas gracias!

I am studying A Grain of Wheat,by Ngugi wa Thiong'o and wow this book is so intense. Can anyone give me any sites of information on this book so I can understand it better? I would really really appreciate this. =)

I'm looking for this book in english, its been written in spanish by Julio Llamazares "La Lluvia Amarilla" or "The Yellow Rain"

Oh, and House of Spirits by Isabel Allende would be a good find too!!!

I don't have any way to purchase this online, I have no paypal system or anything. There's no bookstores carrying them, and they cannot order them on time for my exams.

I would really appreciate if someone can give me a site where I can download it from, or at least notes on them? They are very difficult to translate...so I'd like to complete reading them in English. Anything at all will be very helpful!!!

I don't know what to do, how to explain my resentment towards my boyfriend..I tried explaining it and it just doesn't make sense when I say it but I feel these things.

I've been with guys before, and on a few occasions we never got past the first stage of the relationship - the lovey dovey part, except for one guy, who I was really into.I know my feelings for him were more intense than my boyfriend now, despite my ex's lack of ambition, lack of compassion, clingy and introverted nature.

My current boyfriend is the exact opposite to my ex. He does anyyyything for me, loves me so much, so extroverted and fun. So why is it I have a problem with him?

I can't pinpoint why this is happening..

I know for certain that I don't have intense love for him as he has for me, because I am his first girlfriend but he isn't my first love. He has immature antics that embarrasses me sometimes, as i am insecure about how people view me - and being with him does not produce the best image for me. (In my head, its like the delinquent class clown with the valedictorian sort of thing...as shallow as it sounds,it affects me.)

He's also lazy in school...in general he's not as serious as me. but I feel as if he balances me out rather than clashing with me.

but I get so annoyed at his antics, I even get angry sometimes, and the guilt eats at me knowing that I don't love him as much as he loves me, that he does all these things for me but they don't mean as much as they should..

and he talks about the future, he wants this long term...at first I did too..but now..I just don't know. is it that I can't handle the commitment? How do I overcome his faults? Why don't I love him like how he loves me? Is it that he's better at being a good friend than a boyfriend? I can't break his heart..the guilt will eat me alive. =(

Can anyone help me? I asked him to give me some space to get myself sorted out for now.I want this to work out with him, but I really don't know what to do.

I am conducting a research paper on the economy and how the downturns have affected *students* in particular.I'm looking for answers for these questions, but anyyyyyyyy feedback would be greatly appreciated!!!

Is the economic recession affecting you at all? On a scale of 0-10, 0 being "not at all" 10 being "Highly affected"

Has the recession made you more pessimistic? About what?

Are you resorting to criminal activity because you can't get money?

How is the recession affecting you school life - no extra money for books or extra classes and such? Are you reconsidering your career choice because of it?

What about your social life? Has it caused you to stop going out because you're in a tight squeeze?

Would you even go so far to say that it makes relationships a bit more strained? (I mean, marriages are falling apart cause of it,so why not family relationships or friends even?)

What about your morals? have they changed because of it?

And your health? Is it being affected at all by the recession? How so?

I really appreciate any answers I get =) thank you!!

I'm doing Biology for A levels, but I'm not doing Chemistry at A levels. I did it for my O levels... I'm interested in forensics. How much of forensics requires chemistry? Can someone help me understand more about forensics itself? How can I get into this field? Just how much aspects are involved in forensics? How long does it take? any help will be greatly appreciated =)

I have been invited by the Global Leaders Youth Conference to either China (includes visiting Shanghai, Hangzhou, and Hong Kong I believe) and Europe (includes Budapest, Prague, Vienna. and the additional option of Munich and Austria)

Where would you choose to go and why? I can't decide between them

My dog had puppies, and my parents allowed me to keep one, if I took full responsibility for her. She is 5 weeks old and we aren't certain of her breed because we don't know who the father is or what's the exact breed of the mom. >_>.

For the first month of her life, her mother isolated her away from the world; she kept her in a really far place behind our house. This week, we brought her nearer to the house, and she's quite shy and curious, but she's starting to cause trouble. Like chewing up my mom's plants! This is a major problem. In the past, we've had puppies who chew up shoes and plants and one even ate a frog.

How do I stop or control this? and they also wander out of my yard into the streets sometimes, another big problem.

Any tips will be greatly appreciated!

Theres two boys I'm interested in getting to know..but I don't know what to say to them. Im not good at starting or making conversations, its not that I get nervous around them, but I'm not good at making conversations.I want to get close to them both, because I believe that they are compatible with my personality..but its just a matter of spending more time with them ((which i barely have) ..How do I make the best of my conversations with them and get to know the most I could about them withouth coming onto them too strongly? What do I ask specifically? I know I have to be patient, and the friendships with build itself with time..but..I'm not. Is there anything I can do? Any help would be appreciated a lot =D

Theres two boys I'm interested in getting to know..but I don't know what to say to them. Im not good at starting or making conversations, its not that I get nervous around them, but I'm not good at making conversations.I want to get close to them both, because I believe that they are compatible with my personality..but its just a matter of spending more time with them ((which i barely have) ..How do I make the best of my conversations with them and get to know the most I could about them withouth coming onto them too strongly? What do I ask specifically? I know I have to be patient, and the friendships with build itself with time..but..I'm not. Is there anything I can do? Any help would be appreciated a lot =D

There a game on window's 97,or 98,I cant remember,that I used to play as a kid.I can't remember the name!

Its to do with a cat and a mouse.You play as the mouse,and the aim of the game is to get the cheese alocated at different places,and get away from the cats.You could also trap the cats too.

It wasn't 3-D,or anything great,but just addictive when I was a kid,and I could never remember the name!

Thanks so much =)

A friend of mine wants to pierce his lip.I do too,but my parents said I have to wait til I'm 18.I'd still like to know though...Does it hurt? How long would it take to heal? He has many piercings,and is allergic to certain metals,so he's very careful,but how can an infection occur if its not the jewelery? There is no concern for a job for him at the moment,but because I would like it done to me later on,how bad is the scar when you leave it to close up? Does this process take a long time or does it hurt? I've heard people say you won't get a good job if I do.How about not wearing it on to work? Would that work? I'm just wondering.

He's having his done this month.I'm gettin mine done in about 2 years,haha =D

Please don't tell me if its a bad or good idea,I'd appreciate answers to my questions much more...Thank you!!

I'm looking for myrr toothpaste for a friend.I've also been looking for rock stores,anime stores,a salon or something where I can get a rock hairdo.

I have no clue where to get these things,and I only have until Wednesday here...Please help out?

Oh,price isn't too much of a problem.If you know the store is expensive,please say so.And please leave the location of the stores/places where I can find them! Thanks a bunch =D

I'm 5 feet 6/7 inches.I'm between 110-120 pounds.I'm 16 years.My aim is NOT to loose weight,but just to remain healthy,and my goal one day is to have toned muscles.

I love to run on my treadmill,but that alone gets to be quite boring.We have a Bowflex machine,but I don't use it.Should I be? I'm on holiday right now,so I can train everyday if possible,but I want a routine suited for me.

As for diet...my family and I dine on a LOT of mashed potatoes,pork,beef,eggs,bread...we always have meat.But I don't eat the pork and beef..I rarely do.

I don't drink soft drinks nor eat take out alot.If we do have take out,its chinese.I get sick when I eat something too oily..eek

I don't snack a lot..all I'd really snack on is bits of chocolate,twice a day at most.Honest.

Anyway..Any help to make a routine would be greatly appreciated!

Im 16,and I want to go for some sort of help.I strongly believe I have BPD,and I have other issues that I want to sort out before they turn into something really nasty,because I know things have the potential to get really bad with me,as it has before.However,everyone I mentioned this to said not to go.They think I have to have more serious problems to go for that kind of help.=\.So how do you really know if you should go or not?