chuchy

Ever since leaving highschool I was dead set on doing something unique...with arts.

then was pressured into doing.something different.

I finished highschool when I was 17...know I am 20...and have changed my major three times...!!!

Have no papers to start a job...

I am lonely...

No friends

No guys...

Nothing interesting!!!!!!...

Why do I feel like this?...it's killing me!!!!...

it's like I am existing not living my life

My friends keep saying that they will hook me up with hottie!, but really! I don't want a cute guy that I'll need to keep my appearance around him.

And If his hot, I don't need a guy with just a face?, or very immature behavior or has a bunch of guys he calls his best friend, and the bro's over whores.

I like a guy with a personality to match.

My friend think I am expecting to much, that I just go out.

I can't!

I need a guy who can make me laugh, cares, a bit silly to go with me, to be brave, can stand up for himself, truthful.

Likes me!

And of course good English .

I leave in Kenya and well there others you can't have a real conversation with!

Is it different that I would like any Tom, dick and Harry as long as he likes me and doesn't expect much from me!

I would love to make new friends.

I mean...our Kenyan guys like totally follow movies and stuff, everyone is into friends with benefits and no guy know wants a relationship and the few chicks going out with white guys have great relationships!

So that's my question? Or is it the same for u guys out there?

In our family we have a sneezing thing around cats and well my cousin got attacked by her own dogs yanked her like a piece of meat...

I just want to know which one Is safe and not harmful?

i love writing stories...i am a student who studies journalism. But i dont want to make my stories public. Others might say that i do not want to be judged...well yes. But i love to do it for me. Like a closet hobby. And i dont know how to tell my mum that really...i would like to just keep it to myself.

I am thinking of doing PR.

I hate it that i seem to change my mind. I dont want to hate it. I shake all over when i think that someone is reading something i wrote...

What should i do?

Is it a bad mistake that i run scared cause i am afraid ofother peoples opinion?

in different situations...other friends might see you differently...

How would you like to prove people wrong to how they think of you?

i seem to like forbidden things...

Things that i cant have...hot guys ofcourse...like them...but i know none will never give me the time of day.

I get back with my ex...simply cause in my heart i know...i want to risk that feeling and though my brother and mother hate him.

I like the idea...the (jane austen life story)

where she ran away with him and never ended up together.

Perhaps its cause i looove a tragic romantic ending...where even though i know they will not end up together...they had a spark!

Thats all that matters...people rarely have that feeling!

Why do i like the forbidden things...and am i the only one?

Hey! But taking someones property does not interest me...

That includes boyfriends...

But that is the forbidden ryt?

I am bubbling.

In short...i like it when there is something to loose and you have to hide...risk...

i dont want perfect.

A guy with faults.

I dont want that guy who will read to me poems...i find that cheezy.

That silent guy who has eyes only for me.

That guy who i will feel safe with and who doesnt give me extravagant gifts

I dont want a guy to go broke over me.

To take me to the simplest dates...cause i hate too much attention.

Who wil introduce me as his. His gal whatever.

One that does not hung around estates...finding guys to hung out with or girls.

And one to make me feel comfortable wherever....

Thats all.

Where are those guys? Hmm

a tough guy with a heart to cherish?

Or any guy with a good heart...marlicous smetyms...silly. Funny.

And is serious and thinks fast in situations...cause i am never serious!

Where?

Thats my question...before some one ryts sme comment what is the question?

i am old fashioned.

Frankly i loove taking hold of a book and reading it...carrying it on my way to class...the long ride home...i..love going to a library and have a variety. But apparently...technology will make that impossible..it will be online. I dont mind technology but i just love the smell of a book and the excitement.

Question is...is anyone, like i am..who loves writing than typing...and reading a book (with papers) than online?

in mombasa...kenya/ there are superstitious women or men who have some witch craft done on their jobs. To protect them from been robbed. So there is always a cat thats black sitting outside the shop...looking all scary.

But truth is it is bewitched to sit outside...apparently when someone sees one out? no one dares going inside until they see the shop keeper.

Anyway...so cats in kenya...for people who believe in the superstion things that...they are sources of witch craft...

ever since i read nora roberts. I fell inlove with ireland so hard and i am drawn to their accent, language, culture, history...and it would do me the greatest thing if i actually met any. I am so phsychd and wel Nora roberts moves my soul with how she loves her heritage. So any irish lad/lass out there? :)

i am kenyan and i have heard of stories and saw others happen...

There are witch craft stories...cats...just ask if ure intersted.