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I found a comic on g.e.hentai called Night of the Jackal by artist Weskers (http://g.e-hentai.org/g/698744/e8a82c272c/) but it seems like it is missing some pages, or I wish there were more. Either way I can't find it anywhere else on the web or the artist, can anyone help?

We are trying to make our own soap to sell, but we only have few months before I go back to school. So we think that we could make a few bars of 100% coconut oil, 100% shea butter, ect.. and then melt them back down and mix different amount together until we come up with a combination that we like. This would be in lieu of a lengthy trial and error period where we try like a 50/50 combo or a 20/80 combo. Right now we are melting some store-bought soap to see if we can prove our theory, but it doesn't seem to be melting or working well. Do we have to just make good guesses at mixtures and wait to see if its a good batch or what? Thanks a lot.

So I've recently started playing rugby and, not being a very sport-oriented person, continue to misunderstand a lot that is going on. I typically play wing or outside center, so when we are setting up diagonally to push down the field I know where I should be. My problem is once the drive starts and all the positions get muddled up. Guys don't stay in numerical order and seem to just jump in wherever they want to take point and run the ball. Most often, I'm standing in someone's way and sucking my thumb trying to figure out what the f*ck to do. Its even more confusing when forwards start mixing in with the backs and I can't really see any organization on the field... but everyone else functions very well.

So, my question is, once the game is in motion and we are driving down the field, should I stay strictly to where I am supposed to be in relation to the other backs around me, or is it OK for the outside center to wind up Inside or further over?

Any video's that give a good visual of players positions in motion of a game would be great, so far I can't find any that are particularly helpful. Thanks.

I'm doing an essay on current US-China relations, and I just want to add a quick little detail about economic interdependence. I read somewhere in an article, probably off of The National Interest, that prior to WWI (or WWII, I don't remember) the UK's and Germany's largest trade partners were each other. Can anyone verify this? As much info as possible is greatly appreciated, thanks much.

I have downloaded Global Conflict Blue 2 and played around with it a little bit, although I'm pretty terrible. Are there any other ways (free programs or other mediums) to wargame modern conflicts or possible situations? Possibly some sort of strategic simulation of an Indo-Pak conflict over Kashmir or something.

I'm really looking to learn how to command troops in a realistic way, like actual war college level planning and maneuvers as well as geostrategic or political thinking. As much info as you can please, thanks a lot.

Sorry, this is a bit long but I have never really said any of this to anyone before so I just wanna see how viable it sounds.

So I am extremely introspective and highly self aware both psychologically and physically. I am usually overly sensitive to any sensation in my body as well as what is going on inside my head, thoughts, and neurology (so I think). I have been very very focused on the idea of identifying the differences between my left and right brain hemispheres. For years now I have had bad anxiety, depression, and insomnia (eventually leading to a self-diagnosis [albeit an accurate one] of derealization and depersonalization). I am very neurotic when it comes to my anxiety, I am always planning and trying to see every possible outcome ahead of me, which makes me think that my Left Hemisphere (logic) is constantly in overdrive. Simultaneously, since I have derealization and I only feel a very slight emotional connection with ANYTHING if I form emotional bonds at all, makes me think that my Right Hemisphere is probably relatively inactive.

I am right handed, I "think" my right ear hears better, and my right eye has better vision... leading me to the assumption that my Left Hemisphere is overall more active. This then makes me wonder if somehow all of my stress from anxiety, depression, and mental fatigue is much more concentrated in my Right Hemisphere.

In addition to worse physical function, hearing, and eyesight, my left testicle is also noticeably closer to my body at all times to the point that it may go up inside me at not 'that' cold of a temperature. It may be a hernia, I am unsure and have not seen a doctor about it, but I also wonder if it doesn't have something more to do with my Right Hemisphere. Typically after sex, my left testicle will descend and go even lower than my right rather than always staying closer to my body. I also notice that my right testicle tends to be more swollen even after ejaculation, and never seems to get too close to my body as it is supposed to to squeeze out the sperm before ejaculation. Now, what this all leads me to is that I think I ALSO have low dopamine (which would make sense after years of stress, depression, and insomnia). Low dopamine may also explain why for a long time I have masturbated fairly frequently and at times impulsively (i.e. to get a quick rush of dopamine to the brain). What if my Right Hemisphere is perpetually keeping my left testicle closer to my body, where it is continuously being squeezed empty for any ejaculate fluid... almost like my Right Hemisphere is constantly trying to have an orgasm and get that dopamine and stress release?

Is there any existing proven or theoretical thought on brain function like this? Does it sound plausible?

PS to build on the Right Hemisphere stress idea, the left half of my body is ALWAYS more rigid and stiff with everything I do, almost like the left half is trying to perform but can't as if it is under immense pressure to be perfect, and so it falters because of this added rigidity. This also brings me to...

My other concern is that I have a strange twitch in my left leg particularly, but that can stretch through pretty much my whole body. It is not an absent twitch, in fact I actually consciously control when it may happen in a way. It is like one day a while ago, I realized how tense the left half of my body is, and somehow just by focusing hard enough on one muscle group in my body (it seems that the most tense part of my body is the left inner thigh and lower abs, actually where the testicular retraction muscles lie [which may again sign to a hernia but just for arguments sake...]) I can almost relax the tense muscles. EXCEPT, that when I relax the muscle it doesn't quite feel like I'm relaxing it, and furthermore the leg begins to tingle. The tingling is a really intense sensation (no pain) and it used to force me to stop because of the intensity. I have since regularly practiced holding the tingling sensation, so now I can keep it going for some time. Nonetheless my body actually makes an involuntary twitch. Its is like the leg muscles become relaxed, so they involuntarily contract in a series of twitches (sometimes average and sometimes rather powerful that make my whole leg jump). It makes me think of how one's legs twitch in REM sleep when the body is unsure whether limbs are alive or dead because they are so still/relaxed. Any ideas what this may be? Neurological damage/condition (I hope not)? Just another strange symptom of years of anxiety and stress (stress like I'm 20 and have grey hairs)?

PS when I smoke weed (which seems to exacerbate my anxiety AND relieve it at the same time) the leg twitching gets out of control and in addition, my whole body shivers.

Give me as much feedback or thoughts as you can, thanks a lot. Sorry again for how long this is, thanks for reading all of it, haha.

Sorry, this is a bit long but I have never really said any of this to anyone before so I just wanna see how viable it sounds.

So I am extremely introspective and highly self aware both psychologically and physically. I am usually overly sensitive to any sensation in my body as well as what is going on inside my head, thoughts, and neurology (so I think). I have been very very focused on the idea of identifying the differences between my left and right brain hemispheres. For years now I have had bad anxiety, depression, and insomnia (eventually leading to a self-diagnosis [albeit an accurate one] of derealization and depersonalization). I am very neurotic when it comes to my anxiety, I am always planning and trying to see every possible outcome ahead of me, which makes me think that my Left Hemisphere (logic) is constantly in overdrive. Simultaneously, since I have derealization and I only feel a very slight emotional connection with ANYTHING if I form emotional bonds at all, makes me think that my Right Hemisphere is probably relatively inactive.

I am right handed, I "think" my right ear hears better, and my right eye has better vision... leading me to the assumption that my Left Hemisphere is overall more active. This then makes me wonder if somehow all of my stress from anxiety, depression, and mental fatigue is much more concentrated in my Right Hemisphere.

In addition to worse physical function, hearing, and eyesight, my left testicle is also noticeably closer to my body at all times to the point that it may go up inside me at not 'that' cold of a temperature. It may be a hernia, I am unsure and have not seen a doctor about it, but I also wonder if it doesn't have something more to do with my Right Hemisphere. Typically after sex, my left testicle will descend and go even lower than my right rather than always staying closer to my body. I also notice that my right testicle tends to be more swollen even after ejaculation, and never seems to get too close to my body as it is supposed to to squeeze out the sperm before ejaculation. Now, what this all leads me to is that I think I ALSO have low dopamine (which would make sense after years of stress, depression, and insomnia). Low dopamine may also explain why for a long time I have masturbated fairly frequently and at times impulsively (i.e. to get a quick rush of dopamine to the brain). What if my Right Hemisphere is perpetually keeping my left testicle closer to my body, where it is continuously being squeezed empty for any ejaculate fluid... almost like my Right Hemisphere is constantly trying to have an orgasm and get that dopamine and stress release?

Is there any existing proven or theoretical thought on brain function like this? Does it sound plausible?

PS to build on the Right Hemisphere stress idea, the left half of my body is ALWAYS more rigid and stiff with everything I do, almost like the left half is trying to perform but can't as if it is under immense pressure to be perfect, and so it falters because of this added rigidity. This also brings me to...

My other concern is that I have a strange twitch in my left leg particularly, but that can stretch through pretty much my whole body. It is not an absent twitch, in fact I actually consciously control when it may happen in a way. It is like one day a while ago, I realized how tense the left half of my body is, and somehow just by focusing hard enough on one muscle group in my body (it seems that the most tense part of my body is the left inner thigh and lower abs, actually where the testicular retraction muscles lie [which may again sign to a hernia but just for arguments sake...]) I can almost relax the tense muscles. EXCEPT, that when I relax the muscle it doesn't quite feel like I'm relaxing it, and furthermore the leg begins to tingle. The tingling is a really intense sensation (no pain) and it used to force me to stop because of the intensity. I have since regularly practiced holding the tingling sensation, so now I can keep it going for some time. Nonetheless my body actually makes an involuntary twitch. Its is like the leg muscles become relaxed, so they involuntarily contract in a series of twitches (sometimes average and sometimes rather powerful that make my whole leg jump). It makes me think of how one's legs twitch in REM sleep when the body is unsure whether limbs are alive or dead because they are so still/relaxed. Any ideas what this may be? Neurological damage/condition (I hope not)? Just another strange symptom of years of anxiety and stress (stress like I'm 20 and have grey hairs)?

PS when I smoke weed (which seems to exacerbate my anxiety AND relieve it at the same time) the leg twitching gets out of control and in addition, my whole body shivers.

Give me as much feedback or thoughts as you can, thanks a lot. Sorry again for how long this is, thanks for reading all of it, haha.

Can low dopamine be permanently repaired in the brain or would it be a contined practice of taking supplements?

I think I have been depressed and very anxious for many years (I'm 20 and it probably started around age 10-12) as well as now I am realizing the extent of my difficulty concentrating and creating/pulling up memories. After talking to a therapist for the first time this past week I also mentioned that I tend to be able to focus in on video-games or TV easily, almost hypnotically drawn to a TV screen, which he mentioned is a sign of ADHD. I am really hoping it is not ADHD, because of its incorrectability, and I think that years and years of constant depression, bad sleep/insomnia, anxiety, poor(ish) diet, and not-regular exercise, (*cough plus I tend to masturbate habitually, which led me to the idea of low dopamine) I wonder if I do not have ADHD but the symptoms are similar. I have had a lot of stress on my body

to the point that I have a LOT of grey hairs, so I think it may just be these compounded factors that appear to be ADHD.

Either way, I really want to be able to increase the levels of dopamine in my body. I've looked at CDP-Choline, L-Dopa, and dietary/lifestyle changes to help. What I really want to know is whether or not dopamine levels can be permanently repaired, even after years of stress, so that in the future I wont have to continuously take supplements or stick to such a strict routine of diet and exercise.

I think I have been depressed and very anxious for many years (I'm 20 and it probably started around age 10-12) as well as now I am realizing the extent of my difficulty concentrating and creating/pulling up memories. After talking to a therapist for the first time this past week I also mentioned that I tend to be able to focus in on video-games or TV easily, almost hypnotically drawn to a TV screen, which he mentioned is a sign of ADHD. I am really hoping it is not ADHD, because of its incorrectability, and I think that years and years of constant depression, bad sleep/insomnia, anxiety, poor(ish) diet, and not-regular exercise, (*cough plus I tend to masturbate habitually, which led me to the idea of low dopamine) I wonder if I do not have ADHD but the symptoms are similar. I have had a lot of stress on my body

to the point that I have a LOT of grey hairs, so I think it may just be these compounded factors that appear to be ADHD.

Either way, I really want to be able to increase the levels of dopamine in my body. I've looked at CDP-Choline, L-Dopa, and dietary/lifestyle changes to help. What I really want to know is whether or not dopamine levels can be permanently repaired, even after years of stress, so that in the future I wont have to continuously take supplements or stick to such a strict routine of diet and exercise.

I really think I may be a genius... I am a 20 year old male who has been far more mature long before anyone else growing up. I have taken multiple online IQ tests (not paid ones so there not too accurate, but) that all placed me above 140. I am extremely musical, I have played the guitar for over 9 years and have self taught myself piano. I am extremely artistic and can draw, paint, write, and so on very well. I have self taught myself chess and quickly picked it up. I have truly incredible logical abilities while still being extremely emotionally aware and sensitive to both myself and other people, as well as I can easily read people and tell what is going on inside their head even long before they do. Most of all, I am truly creative and original in my creativity and imagination. I can give more reasons that have convinced me, but I don't want to sound like I'm bragging because I really hate that.

I really would like to have other people recognize it, not even on a large scale... but just to be able to tell people I am a genius and have them take me seriously rather than laugh it off. So are there certifiable tests or certifications/acknowledgements that can identify people as some type of genius.

I really think I may be a genius... I am a 20 year old male who has been far more mature long before anyone else growing up. I have taken multiple online IQ tests (not paid ones so there not too accurate, but) that all placed me above 140. I am extremely musical, I have played the guitar for over 9 years and have self taught myself piano. I am extremely artistic and can draw, paint, write, and so on very well. I have self taught myself chess and quickly picked it up. I have truly incredible logical abilities while still being extremely emotionally aware and sensitive to both myself and other people, as well as I can easily read people and tell what is going on inside their head even long before they do. Most of all, I am truly creative and original in my creativity and imagination. I can give more reasons that have convinced me, but I don't want to sound like I'm bragging because I really hate that.

I really would like to have other people recognize it, not even on a large scale... but just to be able to tell people I am a genius and have them take me seriously rather than laugh it off. So are there certifiable tests or certifications/acknowledgements that can identify people as some type of genius.

I really think I may be a genius... I am a 20 year old male who has been far more mature long before anyone else growing up. I have taken multiple online IQ tests (not paid ones so there not too accurate, but) that all placed me above 140. I am extremely musical, I have played the guitar for over 9 years and have self taught myself piano. I am extremely artistic and can draw, paint, write, and so on very well. I have self taught myself chess and quickly picked it up. I have truly incredible logical abilities while still being extremely emotionally aware and sensitive to both myself and other people, as well as I can easily read people and tell what is going on inside their head even long before they do. Most of all, I am truly creative and original in my creativity and imagination. I can give more reasons that have convinced me, but I don't want to sound like I'm bragging because I really hate that.

I really would like to have other people recognize it, not even on a large scale... but just to be able to tell people I am a genius and have them take me seriously rather than laugh it off. So are there certifiable tests or certifications/acknowledgements that can identify people as some type of genius.

I know quite a bit about the military, but some people really dwarf my knowledge. How does a person become such a military buff, armchair general, or so knowledgeable that they can be hired as an analyst? Is there anything I can do now, any good websites or resources?

I'm currently in Ithaca College working on a BS in politics, hopefully with a focus in foreign relations and security affairs. After graduation I plan on enlisting in the Marine Corps... and I'm enlisting just for the life experience of being enlisted, I'm not looking to be an officer just for the prestige or career.

Anyway, I was just wondering about the tactical and strategic-level positions within the military. It's a really vague question but I really don't know exactly what I'm asking about. What positions in the military require one to actually review strategic military thinking or postures and doctrines, what exactly do they do, how do you get this position/qualifications/prereq's? Whatever and as much info as you can is greatly appreciated.

PS this is kind of off the point, but I'm a huge military buff and with my friends I'm kind of king sh*t when it comes to discussing technology or relations... but plenty of people on the internet make me look like a plebeian. How exactly do yo get to be so well versed in every aspect of the military and military affairs? Research what/where? Do what? Thanks

My girlfriend of 10 months just broke up with me yesterday. She was my first girlfriend even though I'm 20 now, but I absolutely knew I loved her... and not just loved her, but I knew even without being in other relationships that she was THE ONE. I really only saw myself living with her for the rest of my life, and even though I may have wanted some time to hook up with a few more girls or be on my own for a while, I can't handle the idea of us being apart. I have nobody to talk to the way I did with her, Nobody feels like her. It was like everything I did was only to kill time until I saw her again. And now that she's gone, I have no desire to do anything, I only think about her and getting back together with her, and I cant even sleep to numb everything for a few hours because I'm stuck thinking and writhing about it.

We didn't end badly at all, she still really loves me and knows I do for her. But I was in a terrible emotional place when we first met, and it must have resonated through our relationship. In the end, she realized that she hadn't been happy for a long time because she felt like I could not be consoled ever and she decided that at least the way we had been, she could not stay in that relationship. But I really think that I am infinitely better than I was, and if we were together even now it would work. She really does love me, and she regards me as her first real relationship, and that I was a truly special person to her... plus we'll be friends after a few weeks of tourturous silence.

What should I do? I should probably try to live my life and take advantage of the time I have as single now, but I really don't want to or feel like it. All I can think about is waiting a few months, and maybe (I hope not) a year until we feel alright to get back together. Does anyone have any experience getting back together with a girlfriend? Does it work in your or my circumstance? Literally all I want in life is her, I've never had many real aspirations, but I know that the only thing that makes me feel whole and complete and happy is her.

PS sorry this is so long...

My girlfriend of 10 months just broke up with me yesterday. She was my first girlfriend even though I'm 20 now, but I absolutely knew I loved her... and not just loved her, but I knew even without being in other relationships that she was THE ONE. I really only saw myself living with her for the rest of my life, and even though I may have wanted some time to hook up with a few more girls or be on my own for a while, I can't handle the idea of us being apart. I have nobody to talk to the way I did with her, Nobody feels like her. It was like everything I did was only to kill time until I saw her again. And now that she's gone, I have no desire to do anything, I only think about her and getting back together with her, and I cant even sleep to numb everything for a few hours because I'm stuck thinking and writhing about it.

We didn't end badly at all, she still really loves me and knows I do for her. But I was in a terrible emotional place when we first met, and it must have resonated through our relationship. In the end, she realized that she hadn't been happy for a long time because she felt like I could not be consoled ever and she decided that at least the way we had been, she could not stay in that relationship. But I really think that I am infinitely better than I was, and if we were together even now it would work. She really does love me, and she regards me as her first real relationship, and that I was a truly special person to her... plus we'll be friends after a few weeks of tourturous silence.

What should I do? I should probably try to live my life and take advantage of the time I have as single now, but I really don't want to or feel like it. All I can think about is waiting a few months, and maybe (I hope not) a year until we feel alright to get back together. Does anyone have any experience getting back together with a girlfriend? Does it work in your or my circumstance? Literally all I want in life is her, I've never had many real aspirations, but I know that the only thing that makes me feel whole and complete and happy is her.

PS sorry this is so long...

So I am in my first relationship, we've been dating for a little over 10 months. She is absolutely perfect for me, I keep telling her that she is literally an unbelievable dream-girl... because she really is. But I am now 20 years old, and for my entire life that I can remember I have been severely depressed, stuck inside my own head all the time, and I have always been very detached from the rest of the world and other people.

So, when I'm with my gf she doesn't really feel real in a sense. I mean, I'll walk around and see other people and interact with them, and it feels like I am actually engaging real people and I feel like they are actually there and conversing and interacting with me. But when I talk to my girlfriend, it feels like there ISN'T someone there... like I'm just inside my own head almost imagining our conversation or our sex or whatever we're doing. In sex, she can say and do the exact same things to me that anyone else can do, but for some reason they just don't seem that arousing or like they're truly happening to me... I imagine its not like it would be with someone who I saw as 'real'.

Anyway, I'm sure this is kind of weird or difficult to follow... but I really would LOVE any help. Write as much as you can/want, I really love her and I just know that if I could feel more like she's really there then literally everything we do would get SO much better. Thank you. (10 pts. for best answer as some incentive)

What exactly (more exactly) do you do in the CIA's NCS (internship)?

So I have been told that the CIA is a great place to intern if I am studying politics, and that they are always taking in Politics Majors as interns. I think this would really be interesting, plus the fact that many of their internships have a lot of benefits and pay. I looked at their site and was taken by the National Clandestine Service, but of course the description of what they do was painfully vague. Does anyone know what jobs they have/do in the NCS and what is offered for undergraduate interns to do/what those internship jobs entail? As much info as possible is preferable. Thanks

What exactly (more exactly) do you do in the CIA's NCS (internship)?

So I have been told that the CIA is a great place to intern if I am studying politics, and that they are always taking in Politics Majors as interns. I think this would really be interesting, plus the fact that many of their internships have a lot of benefits and pay. I looked at their site and was taken by the National Clandestine Service, but of course the description of what they do was painfully vague. Does anyone know what jobs they have/do in the NCS and what is offered for undergraduate interns to do/what those internship jobs entail? As much info as possible is preferable. Thanks