I don’t like the feeling of happiness. Is anyone else the same?

I was severely depressed and sought help through a doctor and was prescribed antidepressants. They helped. I find myself making a lot more jokes, feeling more comfortable in social situations, being active on social media, etc. I even had the courage to talk to a few girls. BUT, I just don’t feel like myself. I feel comfortable being quiet and peaceful. It’s like the antidepressants are forcing me to put myself out there and it’s uncomfortable at times. I don’t want that. It’s like I prefer being slightly depressed over being happy.