Shy Fly 25

Like not every session but sometimes in more detail than I'd like to share, because I was never the type to kiss and tell... You know?!

What does all of this have in common? I'm gassy? Could I still be pregnant or is it just a bunch of coincidences & a possible UTI?! 8/

Ok so my last cycle came a day early on September 21st. Before that it had been 29 days so August 24th, July 26th, June 27th etc but then on October 5th I had some very light brown spotting which is strange for me it's never happened before. Cramping in my uterus on the 11th & the 17th including some right sided cramping near my ovary... Now I've had spotting that was bright red & watery & light flow at best (no clotting & so sorry for tmi) instead of a normal period. Do not get me wrong it was on time albeit late in the day on the 19th that it started with spotting, & not til late afternoon did I need more than toilet paper. But that was gone again on the 22nd & now back to just spotting these last two days?! What's up wit dat? Should I be concerned that my cycle ran out or seemed light this month? Besides the cramping I've noticed some other things that were questionable with the spotting... But four negative pregnancy tests! Did I try testing too soon?! Sorry so long! I'm stumped! Anyone else ever experienced anything like this before?! 10 points 4 best answer!

Or am I just being paranoid that because he has them & he can use them with other people supposedly carefree of pregnancy & STIs?!

Ok so the thing is my hubby used a flavored condom I was saving & said he used it to masturbate? Well I wanna believe him but sometimes when he acts cold & distant or comes home later than usual with a lame excuse as to why he's late & lately he only seems to want oral sex from me so then I wonder what is going on here?! :/

I want to be a better person, to change who I am & have been forever! I want to be more loving to my family & to God's children around me. I don't want to be angry or abusive to anyone anymore. I want to forgive myself... I want to be more honest with everyone I love about my true thoughts & feelings. Maybe if I'm lucky one day I will like myself! I know in my heart God loves & forgives me~ so I too need to love myself, accept that forgiveness, & keep moving forward! I don't want to waste even one more day in the swamp of depression! I desire to full rely on God instead! Has anyone else ever tried to change on their own before? Did you try it with or without God's help? Did it work for you? Did it produce lasting change or no?

My uterus hurts. It aches all over & both sides the Fallopian tubes seem to ache. My husband & I have been using condoms except on rare occasions. Then he used the withdrawal method. I seem to remember a feeling like this pain before... But the thing is the memory is very vague as it is attached to an old sexual assault? So why is it trying to be a problem for me now? Is it more likely a UTI or a PID? Sorry if this is a tmi question but I would greatly appreciate any insights you may have? Thank you for your time & answers... :)

I don't want to tell him because I don't want to ruin our intimacy time or have him thinking that I'm thinking about someone else cuz it's not like that but I sometimes really hate the feeling my body sensations have & I wanna start crying & throw his hands off me & I don't wanna be touched! How can I get over myself & be a good wife for my husband?! :/

He is usually working & I just want to exercise & go; I'm not there to socialize~ Is it just me being paranoid & untrusting or is there a legitimate reason for me not to want to fraternize with various men I don't know?!

My last period was on the 21st of sept. A day early~ Then on the 5th I had some lite brown spotting. Does this mean what I think it means?! I never spot midway between a normal cycle! We've been using condoms except once when he pulled out & ejaculated on my body instead. So I guess if I am then it would be from pre ejaculate?

I'd like to open up completely without being hauled off to the psych ward, *I know sometimes that not 100% of my thoughts are rational* & last time I spoke to him he said I sounded angry but I might be grieving a loss... Anyway I don't like it when he can tell that I'm angry & I'm not yelling! I was trying very hard to be patient! Some of the thoughts I have are dark bad thoughts... But I know I can't follow them. But I'd rather not share them or dwell on them in therapy either you know? The fact is I don't want him to think of me in that light?! 8/

I want to take my older children to the pool this summer, I was just wondering if there was a certain age at which a baby's skin is still sensitive to pool water such as chlorine?

http://www.silentvoices.org/VaccinesAbortedFetuses... D= very appalling!!! Every Parent should read & be aware of this atrocity!!!

My husband and I have been together for nearly 7 years now. Married for almost 3 1/2. We have 2 young children and are expecting our third in a few months. Recently my husband seems slightly more distant than usual. Not sure if it is my pregnancy or his promotion at work that is distracting him. He forgot to call me on his lunch hour a couple of days in a row. Then when I did go see him for lunch he went back to work half an hour early. Sometimes he gets home pretty late. The other day I found a condom where he empties his pockets. I am 6 months pregnant and we haven't used condoms in years. Not sure what to think here. Probably TMI, but he tasted like baby powder and we don't have any in the house? Should I be concerned? I don't want to jump to conclusions! I know that I am pregnant with a child that he doesn't want. :( There is a girl at his work who has made cookies for him and I understand that they may flirt a bit in conversation. I don't want to lose my husband and the daddy of all 3 of my babies to some skinnier, younger, not-so-pregnant girl from his workplace. Any advice on how I can make myself more attractive to him? I have no solid evidence... only my paranoid delusions.

She turned three in June and I guess we have had problems with regression from moving and stuff but it is getting frustrating for me to think of having three kids under the age of four in diapers come March. What can I do to help encourage her to want to be the big girl and use the potty by herself?!

My husband recently got a promotion at work, and will not be available to help me with the three children... not that he really helps me out that much now... but will I really have the energy and what it takes to parent a girl who will be four in June, a boy who is turning 2 in January and a newborn in March; plus keep up on household chores such as laundry, cleaning, and dishes?! I need some help, because I have bipolar disorder and sometimes I can't remember to take my own medication!!!!

I feel bad because my daughter begs for it for comfort at bedtime, and I don't know for sure how long it is appropriate to nurse my infant son?! Any thoughts from ladies who've been there would be much appreciated! Please... and thank you very much!

All pregnancy tests come up negative, but I keep feeling the kicking and flicking of quickening?!?!

Or should I just avoid him until its too late?!