Hannah

Today when I got home from school my mom gave my grandma some blankets. My heart sank when I saw them.

I had those blankets under my bed, where I hid my diary.

My diary was just laying under my bed (along with 2 other personal notebooks)

with my pen in a different spot (I used it as a bookmark)

I feel sick to my stomach. Literally sick. I wrote so much in it. From crushes, to fights between her and I, my struggle with self-harm that she didnt know about (clean since April!) and my eating habits (I resorted to starving myself a few weeks ago) I've since been eating normally.

I think she's read it because she gave me lots to eat. And mentioned eating disorders.

That diary had my deepest most personal thoughts in it. I'm so afraid if she did read it. I feel so horrible. I don't want to confront her with it though. She's been acting cheery and okay, but she is great at hiding things

please help! What should I do!

So on August 5th I ordered a sweatshirt off of Amazon. When I look under the "Your Orders" tab it says that the delivery estimate is August 9th - August 13th. It also said that it is shipped.

I looked under the "Track Package" tab and it said it was delivered on August 9th. Although I wasn't home (babysitting), my brother was looking for the postal guy to drop it off. I didn't believe that it actually was delivered until I looked at the USPS website (that's what is delivering it) and it said that it indeed was delivered yesterday at 11 am.

I didn't get a note or anything on my door if it was delivered. Unless they just left it on the doorstep, which wouldn't be good because I live in an apartment and there are ALWAYS people around.

Do you think that it could be delivered in the next couple of days, or did I really miss the delivery?Thanks in advance.

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My mother's dad is in the hospital right now. He's brain dead from a heart attack. When my mom was younger, he was rarely around and she's angry about it. Ive only met him once, a few years ago. We just got the news that they will be taking him off of life support and she's saying her goodbyes tomorrow. She's acting like everything is okay, but she was crying earlier on the phone.

How can I make her feel better or console her tomorrow? I know she will be a mess. I get a hole in my stomach and cry whenever she cries, but I just want her to be okay.

What can I say or do to help her?

Thank you in advance.

So I'm just starting out high school this fall, and I am so incredibly scared. I have a bit of anxiety which doesn't help the situation at all.

I'm worried I will get lost, get bullied, have no friends etc. All of my closest friends moved away to different cities, so that's the worst. Should I bring a backpack on the first day? I have gym, what should I wear? Ugh I'm so stressed.

Does any one have any tips that will help me survive the 4 years?

Thanks in advance!

So I've been cutting since 2009, (5th grade)

I'm in 8th now. Someone told on me in 5th grade and my mom was so mad and she grounded me. She hated me for a month.

So tonight I was cutting(on my hips) and all of a sudden i cut my arm. It's in the middle of my elbow and wrist and I'm not sure how to hide it or an excuse for it. I was thinking of telling my school counselor, to finally get help, but I'm afraid my mom will find out. My school counselor and I are very very close. She was the music director and helped me sing, I spent lots and lots of time with her. I know she'll be understanding, but I know she'll tell my mom. My mom will hate me again.

What should I do?

Please help.

Hi everyone! I'm 14 years old, 5'2 and 154 pounds and absolutely tired of being my size. I know that I'm pretty overweight and I hate it. I want to lose 50 pounds to feel better and be healthier.

How can I reach that goal? What excercises could I do? How can I eat healthier and keep being motivated?

I know it's not going to happen overnight, I need/want to work hard for it.

Thanks in advance.

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There is a 6th grader at my school (I'm in 8th) and he is soooo in love with me. He got me a rose on Valentines Day, made me a bracelet, got me a necklace etc. We are in the same singing group for our singing competition and he pulled me aside and said "Can I talk to you tomorrow" I said, "Why not here?" He replied with, "Too many people around, I might get emotional" so I was like alright...

So he told me today that he would tell me Tuesday.

I'm 95% sure that he's going to ask me out. How can I say no as politely as possible? He's like my little brother, I just can't see myself dating him.

Thanks in advance.

I love this name, but I can't decide on the spelling.

Stephen or Steven?

Okay, so I need a really amazing place to work on Facebook!

I was 'working' at Super Weenie Hut Juniors, but some girl copied me and now I'm being called a poser. So, does anyone have any good ideas?

thanks in advance. :)

Do you really think that one day zombies will walk among us?

I'm addicted to Avril 14th by Aphex Twin.

I'm addicted to Carmel Frappes from Burger King or McDonalds..

i absolutely love them. <3

My mom just showed me a paper for some singing classes. They will teach techniques and voice strengthening every Monday from October through December, leading to a holiday concert where we sing 2 songs. It's only $20 for students, so I think it would be cool. The bad thing is, I won't know anyone there and there will be mentally ill people there. I do have some experience around mentally ill people, but I'm worried that I'll be really bad and that they'd make fun of me or something. My mom really wants me to do this because she said I have a pretty decent voice, and maybe the instructor has connections with people so maybe I could get discovered. I can't bring a friend, because none of my friends are really into music like I am. Should I still go and meet new friends? Should I just get over my fear of being judged?

I really want to take all the posters and stuff off my wall and move my huge dresser to the wall where all my posters were.

I've done this quite a bit, causing little holes (from the thumb tacks) almost everywhere on my walls.

I live in an apartment.. so this is kind of a problem.

Is there any way to fill the holes? I heard that toothpaste worked.. but I'm not totally sure.

Thanks in advance.

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Okay, i've asked this question before, but wasn't too happy with the answers.

In April, I bleached and dyed chunks of my hair blue (my bangs/fringe and just random pieces)

Then in June I dyed over the blue chunks red and purple.

Now that the red and purple are faded into a faint purplish blonde color, I'd like to dye it one more time.... But I would have to bleach it. I asked my mom if I could, and she said she'd see how damaged it is after I get it cut. Yesterday, my grandma looked at my hair and asked me if I ever deep condition it because it's all frizzy, I actually never do. Could I bleach the dye my hair one more time? Because I'd really like to, before school starts.

Thank you!

I've read all the symptoms and I'm 100% sure I have a Social Anxiety Disorder. I don't like to be looked at, or judged so every day is really hard for me.

Last night, my mom and I were about to go for a walk at the soccer fields in my backyard (i live in an apartment complex). Then I saw a few boys my age running around, and I automatically said "I don't want to go..." because I'm afraid that the boys would look at me and make nasty comments.

She got really really mad and we went home. When we got home she yelled "ENJOY YOUR SHOW!" ( I was sitting down on the couch watching TV) and slammed her bedroom door.

I've told her once or twice that I didn't like walking when people were out there because I get sick. But obviously, she doesn't really care.

I do have really bad self esteem issues, but I'm wondering if she has a right to be so mad at me for not wanting to go for a walk? I think it's pretty dumb.. and I can't wait to move out of this house.

Mine is Tim Burton's Corpse Bride. I could watch that 16 times daily, and not get tired of it one bit. I know every word, (bit weird.. i know) but i just love it.

What is yours?

I have scars on my arms and legs from old self harm, a scar on my pinkie toe where I needed stitches, a scar on my back from getting it glued (i hit my back on a carport pretty bad) a scar on my arm from when i was pulling a cake pan out of the oven and i got burned, a scar on my face from when i was a baby and i scratched myself, scars all over my ankles (i don't know why) and a scar on my foot.

Anyone else have a crazy amount of scars?

I've broken my left collarbone.

It started 3 days ago, I just stopped eating. I just kept looking at pro-ana sites and felt disgusting about myself. I wrote down some of the quotes, and I really like them. But yesterday hunger really got to me, ate way over 600 calories and I feel disgusting, and for that, I promised myself that I won't go over 400 calories today. I know this is really bad for my body, but I'm sick of being big.

I'm 157, 5'1, going into 8th grade.. and i'd like to be 130.

I'm getting really scared because whenever I'm hungry I feel fine, but when I'm full of food I just feel sick and disgusting.