Life advice for a 22 year old male? Please read.?
It's my 22nd birthday today and I'm just disgusted with myself and where I'm at in my life. I want to be successful. I want to someday have a family. Wife, kids, a dog or 2 and a nice house in the country. Right now I'm failing horribly to accomplish my goals. All my life I've never really accomplished anything. So I'm not sure how to. I've never really been good at anything. My friends always "give me crap" for it. I'm from a blue collar town and have "manly" friends. I'm not afraid of them making fun of me, but after awhile you start believing them, even if they actually do think you're worth something, I still don't feel like I am. I can't find motivation to do anything. Even though all I ever think about is becoming successful. I don't know where to begin or what I'd be interested in doing. Everything just seems so out of reach. I started drinking in high school. By senior year I was the party animal. Girls would like me for throwing parties, etc. By 19 I got my first DUI. I thought I'd grow up, but at 21 I started drinking heavily with my friends. Every weekend. Friday through Sunday we get trashed, and usually spend 400 dollars a weekend, leaving me with no money. I got my 2nd DUI in February of this year. My life problems are just increasing all the time. The stress, financial problems, etc. I've been extremely depressed. How do I change my life. Please someone save me.
I've been thinking about moving somewhere and starting fresh, but again, it just seems so out of reach that I can't bring myself to just leave everything behind. I have a huge problem with hating myself for this...