chaosisme

I'm a Virgo (moon sign Leo) female and Gemini (moon sign Leo) male relationship. I find that we are very different from one another.

I have known my current boyfriend for a year and a half and although we have been on and off for almost that whole time, we basically started to actually really see each other (as in I met his parents) in March. However, we only officially declared that we were together to each other in probably May (even though knew friends, family, stayed at his house every night). He asked me out when he was incredibly drunk over the phone and said that he was tired of not knowing what we were and he loved me. But he has never said it ever since and he does get quite emotional when he is drunk so I'm not sure what it means. Lately we fight a lot and he has said to me, if it was any other girl he wouldn't put up with this, and I feel like this is because their is so much ambiguity around our relationship. I think for him he doesn't trust me because I spent a few night with one of his friends (before I knew who he was and was unaware that they were friends) and for me because there was a rumour debacle where he "apparently" spoke ill of me. However, generally we get along incredibly well.

Would it be appropriate to say I love you or even have a conversation about it or does it seem to messy, because I really do feel that way about him but I don't know if it will make matters worse.

I have known my current boyfriend for a year and a half and although we have been on and off for almost that whole time, we basically started to actually really see each other (as in I met his parents) in March. However, we only officially declared that we were together to each other in probably May (even though knew friends, family, stayed at his house every night). He asked me out when he was incredibly drunk over the phone and said that he was tired of not knowing what we were and he loved me. But he has never said it ever since and he does get quite emotional when he is drunk so I'm not sure what it means. Lately we fight a lot and he has said to me, if it was any other girl he wouldn't put up with this, and I feel like this is because their is so much ambiguity around our relationship. I think for him he doesn't trust me because I spent a few night with one of his friends (before I knew who he was and was unaware that they were friends) and for me because there was a rumour debacle where he "apparently" spoke ill of me. However, generally we get along incredibly well. Would it be appropriate to say I love you or even have a conversation about it or does it seem to messy, because I really do feel that way about him but I don't know if it will make matters worse.

So, nearly every time I hook up with a guy etc... I get told I'm awkward. Usually I am pretty confident in general conversation, I can make people laugh, can have a conversation, am nice etc... and probably come off to people as an extroverted person, but whenever a guy tries to kiss me or go further, I get really nervous and shy. Usually their response is "you weren't that shy before when we were talking" or "why you being so awkward right now" or they just generally make an observation about how shy I am. I honestly just feel awkward being intimate with someone I don't know well, and often if they ask me to kiss them etc... I just put my head down and say nothing. So in the end I might kiss them, but I'm not really affectionate back. To me it is because I don't want to appear to be clingy or to full on as though I am heaps into them after one night (which is what I though guys wanted). Should I tell the truth and say I am shy, or should I just pretend I'm confident. Sometime I feel like they get frustrated with me but I really don't understand why because I'm honestly not trying to be awkward.

So, I have a fake account, just so I don't sound too much like a creep it is so I can keep track of a family member who I had to block on my real profile (long story, who cares). Anyway, I have looked up these two guys on Facebook (on different occasions) just to see their profile as I kind of knew them but didn't want to add them (#notacreeppromise). However, now they are appearing on my profile under suggested friends. I've always thought that suggested friends were people who looked at your profile, and now I'm scared that maybe Facebook sees I have two accounts on the same IP address and therefore is suggesting me as a friend to these two guys based on the fact that I looked them up on my fake account. My question is...Do you think Facebook actually has done that? As it would be incredibly embarrassing, or do you think that these guys are just looking at my profile because we do have mutual friends, did go to the same school (at different times though) and they were just curious because we had met, and kinda made out lol.

So, I have a fake account, just so I don't sound too much like a creep it is so I can keep track of a family member who I had to block on my real profile (long story, who cares). Anyway, I have looked up these two guys on Facebook (on different occasions) just to see their profile as I kind of knew them but didn't want to add them (#notacreeppromise). However, now they are appearing on my profile under suggested friends. I've always thought that suggested friends were people who looked at your profile, and now I'm scared that maybe Facebook sees I have two accounts on the same IP address and therefore is suggesting me as a friend to these two guys based on the fact that I looked them up on my fake account. My question is...Do you think Facebook actually has done that? As it would be incredibly embarrassing, or do you think that these guys are just looking at my profile because we do have mutual friends, did go to the same school (at different times though) and they were just curious because we had met.

Oscars in 2014. What are your favourite movies so far this year.

So, usually I have dreams about being killed. I always have dreams about being killed when I am stressed. However, the other day I was the person killing people. Just wondering what this could mean.So here is my dream:

In the dream, I lived in a place where all my friends were, and we all slept in the same big room. Anyway, my mother (who I havent seen in years in real life) was shaming me because she had just found out that when I was young, I had killed someone. She showed me evidence that it was me who killed them, however, I had blocked this out of my memory and have no recollection.

Then the mafia had found this information, and a man visited me telling me to met him outside at night. Scared, I did so. He rode past on a bike and rang the bell, however I did not understand what this meant, was scared and went back home. He visited me again the next day and said if I didn't met him again that night and complete the initiation process then thy would kill me. At this point everyone was scared of me, worried that I was going to kill them. I assured them I wasn't going to. In the dream I was actually petrified. So I met with the mafia again, and figured that the man on the bicycle who rang the bell was actually meant to be a signal that the mafia had arrived and I was to walk up to them. The initiation process included me having to kill someone or I myself would be killed. I did it and felt so guilty. I also felt as though my life had changed forver.

The other day I put my dog in his dog bed, and the next mourning I woke up with him laying next to me in my bed, under the blankets with his head resting on the pillow. Funniest thing, have no idea how he even managed that. What are some of the stuff your dog does?

I have always been an extremely worried person. I always stress out about everything to the point where I will cry and feel like my life is practically over. I just wanted to know if I have an actual mental illness, or if I am just naturally an anxious person. For example, at the moment we just got a puppy. I constantly check on him in case he escapes (which he probably can't and wouldn't). I've been crying all night because dad made me leave him outside and I am scared something will happen to him. Everytime I hear a dog bark I think he has run away. Everytime he is tired or doing something weird (like repeatedly licking his foot - I thought he hurt himself) I panic and think we need to take him to the vet. It's all I talk about and everyone is just telling me to relax. But on the other hand I don't have any physical symptoms like nausea etc... which makes me think I don't have anxiety, but I feel like this amount of worrying is not normal. I feel like it gets in the way of my life at times.

I have a Red Cattle Dog. He is only about 8-9 weeks old, but he wont stop biting. I can't even pat him now because he just tries to bite my hand. How do I stop him?

So I was holding my puppy and it wanted to get down and run around, but I couldn't let it out of the fence area so I turned around and went to put him back in and he kind of leaped out of my hands and landed on his head. He got up and walked around. Went to his water and walked in that (its hot here). but everytime I go near him he starts yelping/barking at me. Is he ok?

I am more interested contemporary topics. Social commentary, for example, I have been recently watching some documentaries about gangs in New Orleans. Am a fan of a lot of the films on the History Channel. Would love some recommendation on what to watch. Feel free to include any documentaries that you feel are interesting, but don't necessarily fit in any of the above categories. Thankyou.

I can never get up in the morning anymore. I have so much to do with uni as well. But I never get any decent sleep and latley I have just been having nightmares one after another all night. I will sleep for hours and hours and still be tired. This morning I woke up and I felt so worn out. I have a healthy diet, basically the only things I eat is fruit and vegtables and I go for a walk every day. I just don't understand why I feel this way all the time???

...For someone who has only just began exercising daily. Although I walk on and off a lot I've decided to do it everyday. So the minimum that I am to do each day is 20 minutes of walking up hill where I walk up the steepest hills in my suburb at the quickest pace I can and then I walk back around to the otherside of my suburb which takes me around about another 40 minutes. If I do this everyday is it good enough walking up those hills makes my pulse go pretty hard, or should I do more?

I know I probably sound like the most retarded person but because uni is getting intense I don't have much time to exercise so in between studying for a while I get up and dance whether it is with someone or not for 10 minutes. Just jumping around and being an idiot until I sweat a little. I also go for walks but I feel like that isn't enough for a day. So is it actually counted as exercise or should I really have some kind of structured exercise routine. I just find dancing a lot funner that's all and it makes me feel a little relaxed.

Today I ate sooooooooooo much. I had a Kiwi Fruit, 3 bowls of homemade vegetable soup, and because I went out with my friends and then to the movies, subway 6 inch- roasted chicken no cheese, 2 cups of coke which were small and 2 of these pineapple chocolate things (they were only tiny, probably half the size of a minature milky bar of mars bar that you get in those kids packets, my friend gave me two from a big packet). Because I ate so much food and a lot of it was unhealthy can I eat only one healthy meal tomorrow and then after that continue on as normal. Because I have uni I haven't been able to exercise much, I just dance around intensely lol for ten minutes a day inbetween uni work and go for a 40 minute walk at a fast pace. If I can't just not eat anything tomorrow, how much more exercise should I do. I feel heaps guilty.

There is a red lump just above/on my nipple. It's only sore when I touch it. It looks like a pimple and underneatht the bump that appears above the skin there is a ball. Feels like a ball of puss. It feels like a huge pimple and when I squeezed it a fair bit of puss came out and after that a clear liquid started to come out and it. However because it is on my breat and it looks like such a large pimple i wanted to know if it could possibly be breast cancer. I know its a stupid question probably but I have no girl to ask in my family.

I don't really want to drink straight alcohol basically because I get drunk real easy and fear being kicked out lol.