DelilahDisaster

I'm a self-harmer, and I'm really depressed right now, and I don't even know why. I'm bipolar, so I just get down sometimes.

Anyway, I tried to find a forum I could post it, but all of them you have to sign up for, and I don't want to do that. I really need help. I'm scared, and I'm triggered, and I really want to cut. I don't know what to do. Any help is appreciated.

I'm nineteen, and I've been seeing a psychiatrist since the age of fourteen, and after some research today, I'm wondering if I should tell him about this occurrence that's been happening. I've been noticing it for quite a while, at least a year. I repeat my words when I'm speaking to someone, and also when I type them I say them after I've typed them. Also, more recently I've noticed that when I leave the room, even if the light is off, or it's meant to be left on, I have to touch the light switch. I've done some research about Tourette's, and I was wondering if it sounds serious enough that I should talk to him about it? I've done some research about different types of tics and according to my research, these are characterize as complex tics, and are more serious.

Also, I've been diagnosed with OCD, characterized by counting and hand washing rituals, and I have ADHD and insomnia.

So, I'm having a colonoscopy tomorrow to see if I have Crohn's or another form of Ulcerative Colitis, and I know that if they have to take a biopsy it'll be a couple days before they get the results. But how many days does it usually take? I know this sounds stupid, but it's my birthday Friday, and I really rather not find out I have Crohn's on my birthday, y'know? So how long does it usually take to get biopsy results after a colonoscopy?

I have never been diagnosed with an eating disorder, but my therapist agrees that I show the symptoms, like anxiety about eating, over-exercising to rid myself of calories, and purging. I've been getting better, but lately I've been slightly regressing. I am worried that if I eat a lot today, I will want to purge. But if I don't eat the amount my parents want, then they start to worry that I'm starving myself again. What should I do? All answers are welcomed and appreciated.

(I know starving yourself and purging is bad, but it's a mental thing... I feel like I NEED to do it.)

I've never felt comfortable being a girl, and I've often fantasized about what having male parts would be like. I wear skirts and stuff right now, but I feel like I'm only doing it to make my parents happy. I feel extremely uncomfortable in them, not like they don't fit right, but like they're not right for me. I used to dress like a guy, and I felt more comfortable than than I do now.

I'm just very confused about whether I want to be a guy, or if it's just that I'm a very boyish girl. Any help appreciated. Thanks in advanced!

is a sign of weakness or strength?

I personally think it's a sign of strength. If you have the capability to let others see your pain, then you are pretty dang strong in my opinion.

What are your thoughts on this?

I'm eighteen, out of high school, and currently not enrolled in college. I have no job, and all of my "friends" are people from my old high school who only keep me on their Facebook because they want to have more friends. What's a good way for me to make friends around town? Preferably LGBT, or supportive. I live in Lincoln, NE, if that's of any help.

I'm asking this in this section because I didn't get any responses anywhere else.

I know it's not really as common of a label as gay, lesbian, bisexual, or transgendered, however, I think I should get some credit! I mean, if people think I'm so open minded and that I'm awesome for being pansexual (Yes, I've been told this before), then I think I should get some recognition.

What do you think? Be harsh if you wish, I just want to know what people think about this.

Thanks in advance! (:

because I'm still in love with my ex-girlfriend. But my ex won't take me back. Did I make the right decision? I mean, Quinn (my boyfriend) was smart, funny, cute, and sweet, but he was also really clingy and needy. Should I have just confronted him about this before breaking up with him?

(I posted this here because I didn't want a bunch of homophobes bagging on me for liking boys AND girls, just in case you were wondering.)

Pansexual refers to the potential for sexual or emotional attraction towards people of all gender identities and biological sexes. Basically meaning that I am attracted to boys, girls, and transgendered. Is that really so weird??? Just give me your personal opinion. I don't care how harsh it is, I want to know what you really think.

And how much would it take? I'm just having a debate with a friend and we want a definite answer.

Can you die if you take more than five 10mg Loratadine pills? I'm just very curious because my friend said you could, and I don't really believe her.

It's a blog about my eating disorder, and will soon contain poetry, and quotes from books about anorexia, etc etc.

Whether I post the link will depend on the answers I receive.

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT ENCOURAGE PEOPLE DO DEVELOP EATING DISORDERS, I JUST SUPPORT THOSE THAT ALREADY DO.

I have been a cutter for eight years, and I just got out of a treatment center for self harm and anorexia. I really want to give in to my relapse temptations right now, and I just need some advice on what to do...I have a relapse prevention plan, but nothing on it is working. Please help me.

He was a really hyper fitness instructer in the 70's or 80's, he did videos and stuff, he was on who's line is it anyway? and jay leno and shows like that. Please help! (:

I'm just desperate right now, to know that someone feels the same way that I do. I'm just...overwhelmed with emotions. I want to cut, and make the feelings go away, to be numb. I'm honestly considering running away right now. It would be so easy, and I just have the urge to run away, and cut, and just lay down somewhere and die. I don't want to disappoint my fellow flag girls tomorrow, but I just can't do this anymore. I just want to leave.

Grah.

I hate this.

The night is silent, only the sound of my thoughts racing through my mind. The air is hot, and sticky. Bugs surround our bodies, clinging to our sweat, feeding on our flesh. We don't notice.

We are in love.

Cars drive by, not noticing. The grass stirs in a warm breeze, and tickles my neck. You turn your head towards me, I turn mine away. This night is our last chance. I lift my left arm. The scars reflect the light radiating from the porch. You take my hand, pulling my arm toward you. You do it. It feels good. I relish in the pain.

You lift your right arm. I take your hand, pulling your arm toward me. I take the silver, and pull it across the exposed flesh. You moan, enjoying the sting, and the throb. We hold hands, our blood pouring, and mixing. It stains the grass, our arms, our shirts. We don't notice.

We are in love.

We are dying

There's this song I like, that they play on the radio all the time, but I don't know who it's by, or the name of the song. It sounds like Saving Able, or Shinedown or something. The first lyrics are like "My friend gave me this piece of advice" or something, and he's talking about how his friend told him that life is worth living etc etc. If any of you have any idea what I'm talking about, and you know the song, please please tell me! (:

I am looking for something like the book "Boy Meets Boy" or "The Rainbow Boys" series or "Empress of the World". I've run out of options at my school library.

Any suggestions help. (:

Have any of you ever had the feeling of extreme contentment? That everything is just perfectly in sync, and nothing can go wrong? I don't know. The girl I like just asked me out, and it feels pretty much amazing. Everything's just...perfect. =D