Z31

I rambled this up on my keyboard while extremely drunk. Discuss if you will.

I’ve always wondered what the process of figuring oneself out is like for others. It seems like and endless maze of dead ends and setbacks. Perhaps I am just too susceptible to the image others are trying to convey about themselves. Maybe I’m just too naïve and fall into the lie that everyone is living the way they want, with things that I wish I had, like love, and a host of friends. Upon thought, this seems silly. I know that everyone is not completely happy and experiences problems in their lives, but I cannot help but feel that I am on, say, a lower level than that. You may be thinking at this point that I am nothing short of pathetic and narrow minded. Let me attempt to explain myself before you judge me. I have always questioned myself. I have never had that assurance of who I am that I see in others, whether it be true or so pathetically forced upon me by others undyingly striving to appear that way. I have always simply accepted this feeling rather than to try to lie to myself. This is where my true feeling lies. Myself. There is no trust involved in this relationship. No disappointment, only regret. I have never felt truly close to other people. I may be classified as what some would call a “loner.” But it runs deeper than what I see people perceiving as lacking in personality or being interesting to “hang out with.” I have always been so consumed in my own thought that I seem to feel no need for stimulation from others. That is to say, my own thoughts keep me occupied to almost erase the need for outside ideas, but the desire remains, whether this is based on false desire or a true spot of emptiness in my heart. I prefer to think the latter, because only the rectification of that can bring increased feeling of happiness, which I truly desire. I feel my mind is far corrupt and mislead at this time in my life, and I have always pursued nothing short of the truth, but I am coming to realize that truth seems to be a common enemy of the people around me. Everyone seems to want it, but nobody has the heart to give it. This strikes me as hypocrisy at its lowest. Maybe because I have not been so heavily influenced by the lustful ideologies of others that it feels like I alone hold this legitimate value of truth, and I am willing to inflict it upon others. However, I am not motivated to do so for reasons explained above. This leads me to the possibly incorrect feeling that truth only exists within myself, and maybe that is true for everyone. Maybe I am just as hypocritical when it comes to truth that I have claimed others to be. It is possible that truth within myself and others is only masked desire. That is the enemy of us all. It corrupts us, and manipulates us in sometimes disgusting ways to achieve it. I have tried to be true to myself but I am not invincible. Nobody is, or is even close for that matter. I feel undermined in a way, because I feel I value truthful feeling more than others, but at the same time it give me a feeling of strength in a personal sense, but certainly not a social sense. I have met some that I feel relate to this strong desire for truth, and I have only the need to relate to them. This is hard for me however for reasons I have discussed. I come to wonder though if the root of these uncertainties is simply that I have not bonded closely enough to others to realize that they share the same feelings I do. Should this be true, hypocrisy still exists and I am not in any means exempt. I hope by some currently unknown means I can learn to understand myself and others to the point where I am confident and secure with my feelings and the emotion I entrust upon others. I have a long way to go in figuring this out, but every day is a step. On the other hand it is very possible that I am simply lonely, miserable, and jealous, but I hope there is some legitimate, recognizable, deep emotional sorrow in what I have said. I can only continue to hope that there will be light at the end of the tunnel. I can only hope that I am not heading for the edge of a cliff representing the realization that all I have feared about others is true, at which point I simply do not know what I will feel or do. I do feel strongly however that I am simply missing an important piece in the puzzle of connecting with others that I can only hope will resolve this uncertainty. I have not lost all faith. I have made it my goal to feel confidence and unfaltering security in myself around others and as I conveyr my thoughts and ideas to them. I feel only at this point can I truly understand and resolve the uncertainties that I have presented, for better or worse.

God help you if you just read all that.

It's been 18 USPS business days (monday-saturday) so far and I'm still waiting for a package from Florida to Pennsylvania. Maybe it's parcel post's usual lazy agenda combined with the holiday season? I called USPS a couple hours ago and got a confirmation, but they haven't called back with more info like they said they would. Thanks.

How much do you think i could get one for from a salvage yard? I want it as a project to build up. I'm looking for a VG30ET out of an '84-'89 Nissan 300zx (Z31).

Thanks.

About how much would a junkyard charge for an engine and front crossmember? specifically a vg30et out of an 84-89 300zx. Also an estimate for the transmission as well. Thanks.

im swapping an rb25det into my 1986 300zx. do i need to buy an intercooler if i'm running the stock turbo? or just the radiator?

my low beams work just fine. yesterday when i turned the switch to high beams they would take about five seconds to turn on, with the "lights" light on on the dash until they came on. Now the high beams will not come on at all. What could be the problem?

if it isnt how can you tell.

6 cyl engine

does anybody know what the pennsylvania laws are for windshield decals?

i wanted to put this on:

http://cgi.ebay.com/ebaymotors/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?Vi...

i have a 1986 nissan 300zx. it makes this hissing noise while driving when i turn the wheel to the right, even on slight curves. It does not do it no matter how sharply the wheel is turned to the left. It sounds like air escaping from the tire, but im not sure. its not a constant noise, it does it in little bursts while turning the wheel, and only when the car is moving. the wierd part was when i was driving uphill toawrd a stop sign and i braked kind of hard and it hissed the whole time i was braking. after that it didnt do it the rest of the way home. im lost.

just wondering

the stripes on my 1986 nissan 300zx are starting to look pretty ratty (fading, peeling, etc.). my plan of action is to paint them over to make them look nicer. I just wanted to know what color you guys think would look nice.

also what type of paint would you reccommend?

here are pics of the car:

http://i694.photobucket.com/albums/vv305/shuman47/...

http://i694.photobucket.com/albums/vv305/shuman47/...

so on my car, i have two switches on the drivers side that control my window and the passenger window. when i try to put the pass. window down, it goes down about two inches and stops. it goes back up just fine. the drivers side window does not go down at all but if i push it up i can hear the motor pushing it up. the passenger window works just fine when controlled from the passenger side. any idea whats gone bad?

thanks.

Hi i have a 1986 nissan 300zx. I'm in a little confusion as to which grade of fuel to put into it. the original manual says to use at least 87 aki (regular) but i specifically asked the dealer when I bought it and I was told premium or mid grade. I would like to be able to use regular for the most part but I obviously don't want to damage the engine. Any thoughts?

here it is:

http://i694.photobucket.com/albums/vv305/shuman47/...

any ideas?

hi i own a 1986 nissan 300zx. It has a small oil leak and i am hoping it is just the oil filter. there is one small pool directly under the engine and another under the middle of the car about 2 and a half feet back. the second one is larger, and im guessing its because the leaked oil is running along the lines under the car then dripping down. I can tell that both spots are definitely oil by the smell. any help would be great. thanks.

I want to get a blackberry curve from t-mobile. is it possible to have a pay as you go plan, or do I have to have a contract? I don't plan on getting the internet connection feature.