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my gf and I broke up on our 1.5 year anniversary. I love the girl and think she's amazing, which makes this even harder. I was the one who said we needed a break. Reason being I couldn't reciprocate the love she gave. I saw how she was blindly in love and would give anything. I wana say I was same for her but I'm not sure. Cause she was my first, and my first long term. We broke up cause we r graduating in a year and it hurt her to know we would go separate ways, she couldn't just let the future be the future. And it hurt me to know that I was hurting her in that way. I couldn't promise a future with her. been two days. I wana get back with her. but it's been a year and a half since I last was single. I feel like a dick but I am kinda looking forward to it. I wana live by myself for a while and focus on being a better person. I wana be able to give as much love as her. .. I know I'm causing my gf to cry, but I can't talk to her for a week I promised myself. I love and miss being with her! is it over? this is the third time we have taken a break, the other ones we got back together. that's why I feel the third time is the charm. time to move on. just kinda sucks knowing I had so many amazing times. And that we r such a big part of eachothers life, and if I decide next week to not be together, than well that's probably the last time I will ever see her. That's hard for me to coupe. We worked well together, knew each other great. But I just feel there's another door waiting

So, about 3-4 years ago I was on an international exchange trip for 5-6 months. I loved it, best experience in my life and I will go back. BUT I met this amazing girl on the the program, we placed in same city. She was from around the world, but we made the bet with what we had. And near the end of my program we got attached. We went on a trip with friends across the country the last few weeks I was there. We both finally told each other how we felt for each other ever since the first day we met as we both flew into country from different parts of the world. We grew so close, we were a perfect match, and I never say that! It was nice. But when I had to go home. I had to say bye to her. Ripped both our hearts out of our chests. Neither of us wanted to say bye cause we didn't know when we would ever see each other again. HARDEST THINNG IN MY LIFE. . ...3 years has passed now. I use to keep in contact with her. I'm more busy with my career, things are happening, I'm in a relationship here. But, every now and again I catch myself thinking. Thinking about this girl, whose half way round the world. Thinking what it could have been. I don't believe in fate. But with this girl it sure feels like fate is real. And the most torture is the memories we had. ...it's unfinished business I feel. I need to know if it could have happened. ..so I guess, my question is what do I do? Should I go take a flight over there, but if I do that I may never come bak here...

So for about a year now I've had some pretty bad sleep insomnia. I wake up, toss and turn almost every hour on the hour. Could it be due to my mattress? Cause typically I wake up and I have lower back pain and shoulder pain and have to toss and turn. Or should I just go to doctor and get some sleeping pills?

I'm trying to bull up and am currently on a meal plan but would like some variety and change it. Is there any recommendations ? Preferably could someone come up with a good daily meal plan for me. Displaying around 6 meals a day with the type of food to consume per each meal everyday. If possible lay out an entire week. You can't be to specific! I'm serious about it so please be very specific if need be. I want to bulk up and do it right!! But I need some major help cause my plan now is to much fat in it I believe. So a whole new re-amped one would be awesome. Thanks guys! ...and ladies!

Basically I want to quit smoking. I've smoked for about a year and a half almost 2 years now. I love it but had to tamper down to just smoking on weekends cause of college during The week. Now it's been a few months and since school is Monday-Thursday it keeps me busy away for smoking. But once the weekend hits I wana light up. How do I stop this. I just smoked this weekend and I want it to be my last for a while. A long while. Ive tried multiple times to stop but it's so hard on weekends especially when no hw or anything to do. Please any help guys. I'm a strong person and I know I have the will I just need some ideas. I wana become an occasional smoker from once to twice a week to once a month at most. And than go from there to completely quit. I like being sober and having energy to wake up early and have a full day. Weed makes that hard. ...I also have 3 roommates who smoke weed avidly for a religion lol. Do there's a hurdle. There also my best fiends. I know they'll be supportive. But moving out isn't an option.

I am a brand new diver and have a few friends helping me out. Although I do have one asking if I want to buy his Dive computer for $275, its a ScubaPro Meridian dive computer, which retails for $600ish. He is being a friend and selling it at a discount, still under warrenty also. So my question is should I as a new beginner diver buy it off him? Will I make use of it? He has dived for a while and uses the freedive and scuba features on it, I would be just using the scuba feature. So is it smart to buy it for $275 or should I buy another dive computer, maybe a simpler one? or do they really not get that much cheaper than 275 regardless?

ANY HELP IS AWESOME! I am just getting certified and dont really know everything to get or obtain. Thanks

So this is relating to my relationship. I met this girl a year ago, and have been in a relationship for a year come January 1st. I love her with all my heart, and it took me a few months, or even the better part of the year to realize this. We rarely fight, and shes my best friend I can tell her anything and ALWAYS rely on her. There is just something about her whenever I see her. No, shes not the best looking but I realized that doesnt matter cause when I look at her and what she does, I love every part of her, there is just something about her I cant explain. Now comes the question. Come End of May I am traveling abroad to Europe and backpacking across multiple countries. Something I cant wait to do. I have plenty of friends across Europe all of which I plan of visiting, even past friends I have been involved with romantically. I told my GF that I plan on going for 2 months across Europe to travel, and she said exactly "I know you are going to break up" and like I said we love each other and know each other so well, so yes I want to. But aside from sparking old flames, traveling single is a different experience, idk how to explain it. But its more freedom you know, allows for more spontaniality. I dont want to have to check back with her ever day or week cause who knows if i wil even be by a phone. And I dont want her to worry if i miss a planned phone call even for a few weeks. Plus I dont want her waiting for me all summer, cause who knows she may meet someone else. Lastly, shes my first legit gf, im 20 years old so i know I wont marry her at least not now, but that doesnt mean I cant say I love her. I figure since it worked out so well now, than why couldnt it again in 3 months, a year or even 10 years. I am the type of person that wants and loves experience. The thing is this. How do i REALLY know I lovve her if I dont have anyone else to compare the feeling too? thats how I view this, if i really do love her and want to marry her than I have to make sure first. So that means experimenting with other girls, let it be a few weeks, months or years. YEs I know i could loose her, but it wouldn't be fair having her wait for me and me knowing I wont marry her. I have to much curiosity about others, now that im in the dating game. But everyday since I have made the decision to go to Europe I think about leaving her. Is it right to break up with her? Or say I wana take a break and see what happens when im back? is it right to do it when I leave next year in MAy and "drag" her on until than? or should I do it now before she gets more attached? I love her so much, thats what makes this so hard. I just dont know what to do. But how do I know that I REALLY do love her, cause I have nothing else to compare the feeling too...thanks for any advice guys. This is probably more of a airing my thoughts

I am very interested in making Ham and cheese croissants but edibles, with marijuana in it. Anyone have any good idea on how to do this proportionally? Should i use weed butter? oil? Please leave a very detailed recipe, cause this is my first time making edibles....I for sure dont want to use flower, and melt it down and what not. I can go to clinic to get the butter or oil to use for cooking. ..Any help helps!!!!

I now am at 8 months with my girlfriend. She was the first girl I ever became sexually involved with. I honestly can say I love her but recently I've been having thoughts of other girls. Like I said she is my first actual long term gf really (I'm 19) and sexual partner. But more and more lately I am now becoming curious of being sexually involved and hooking up with other girls just now that I know I can, more confidence now I guess. But I swear I love this girl at Least i think I do, but how do I know if I truly do love her if I have no one else to compare her too? This is now my debate, I can't bear to hurt her with a breakup and see her cry but am I really in love? Or just stringing her along for the ride?

I have never had to ask for help on much in my life (Keep in mind im 19) but this I cant seem but to remain clueless on what to do. I recently became a college Freashman and now own my own apartment, I moved 8 hours across state to attend college with hope of transfering to another one on the other side of the country come Junior year. I had this planned out for a while and am really excited, well the deadline is approaching but now I have this Girlfriend, best friend really. We just had our 7 months and now idk what to do. I feel I love her, shes the first actual long term relationship i have ever had, but how can i be sure i am in love? you know if I havent had any other long term relationships yet, how can I compare what love feel like?. MAybe I am or maybe I'm not. Anyways the deadlone to apply for a transfer is approaching, if met I could apply and transfer in Janruary 2014, but leave my gf or I could wait and transfer one year from now or just not transfer at all and stay here to graduate with my gf. But than if I stay that puts my hopes, dreams and plans down the drain for me, and I couldnt ask my gf to do the same for me, i just couldnt.. So here is where I am lost and need advice. I also dont believe it'd be fair to bring her along and hope we stay together cause what if we don't, than she made a HUGE move for nothing. This girl means the world to me, I love her so much and couldnt bare to breakup, idek why we would. If i loose her I am also loosing my best friend and to add insult to injury im gunna go to somewhere where I know no one and no one knows me. idek what to do here I am for once a a loss for words or actions. Any advice guys? Could really help

So i have just started to work out again and want to re-gain some mass and muscle but wana slip some cardio into it. I am at 24 hr fitness and there is a pool. I wanted to know if anyone knew of any good swim routines round 10-15 min that is a full body workout especially the abs....and cardio. thanks

I have to do a research project on native american and the tribal masks they created. I need to find a total of 8 different online museum collections of which contain at least one tribal Native American mask. I found and have used so far (National museum of american indian, Denver art museum, Portland Museum, Oregon Museum, Seattle Museum, Smithsonian ) any other museums that have online collections involving native american masks at leaast 3 more would be awesome!!

Since last June (almost a year ago) I have been smoking weed nearly every day. Now since about 2 months ago i made myself only allowed to smoke on weekends, and now I am limiting myself more and more, because I realized how un-preductive I am on weed). Also, When I use to smoke I used it for my back pain, and sleep issues, I would get an amazing sleep. Although now its different, almost reverse. Instead of getting an awesome night sleep with weed I get a horrible one. I get a **** ton better night sleep without weed in my system during the day, why is this?

I am trying to get into shape again fro summer but want to try a different workout. I am not at all new to intense, hard 5-6 days per week workouts. Does anyone have any good 6 day intense, full body workouts? i.e. training all the muscle groups and cardio. Any help would be awesome. Thanks.

Recently lately I started college. I begun to hear something that i have never heard before, people started to say that when they first meat and saw me they thought i was a douchebag. I have never before been told this, over summer from high school i did get more fit and such, but typically i have always been a talkative confident person. So what does it mean when people say they thought I was a douchebag when they first saw me?

I am a 19 year old male who just got charged with a Minor In possession of alcohol ticket. I was on private property and the cops came and searched my car (I gave them permission, they caught us smoking) anyways since i have a medical card for weed I didnt get any weed charge, but since the beer was concealed in the trunk and closed and technically we were on private property, isn't it illegal for him to charge me with that? Since it wasnt a public road or place? The only charge would have been trespassing right? which he didnt charge me with