Kara P

me

i'm just a fading shadow,

a light flickering in the breeze,

a melting cube of ice,

a tattered piece of fleece.

no one really sees me,

i'm invisible to your eyes,

you have no love for me in your hearts,

i'm the one that you all despise.

so don't pretend to like me,

because i know that you don't,

keep your fake smiles at home,

the truth is all i want.

tell me how you really feel,

about the girl also known as me,

do you think shes an emo kid?

who cuts herself and writes sad poetry?

do you think shes an atheist,

who defies God in every way?

do you think shes diseased,

and if you leave her alone you'll be ok?

one day that girl whose names unknown,

will snap on all who ignored,

the sad eyes and the bruises,

and you'll never know what for.

you will think that you did nothing,

and maybe that is true,

but nothing doesn't help,

so why should she hold back on you?

She will release all of the anger,

and the bad thoughts you put in her head,

and where will that leave you?

on the floor dead...

time ticks away,

i can't feel a thing,

lieng here like a stone,

the noise in my head,

continues to ring,

i am here all alone,

and my hands start to sweat,

no one will remember me,

at least not yet,

the minutes go by,

and the ringing gets so loud,

i can't wait to rid myself of this dark cloud,

so i put the cold steel to my head,

it's going to be quick,

maybe this impression,

will be the one that sticks...

Yes, i HAVE read the handbook, and to tell you the truth, it's REALLY confusing, and i'm not the "technology" person, so, i was hopeing SOMEONE could help me?

Please?

just wonderin...

no title

can we trade her for another,

she's nothing like her sister,

she needs to see a phyciatrist,

maybe that would fix her.

her hearts as cold as ice,

like her poetry, corrupt,

how could she be so unlike me,

why's she so f**ked up?

those were the words she used,

that's what my mama said about me,

and she also said,

"i love you unconditionally"

well isn't that just hypicritical,

you can't love and hate me too,

so which one is your choice,

do you even have a clue?

"I've been a good mama to you,

way better than mine was,

i don't beat on or hurt you,

i just give you my love."

when you say those things,

you know that they're all lies,

or maybe you see it differently,

maybe youre perfect in your eyes.

whatever the case may be,

I dont really care,

I'm tired of all your sh*t,

so i'm running off somewhere.

as you watch me disappear in the trees,

and the light fades from the sky,

you know you'll never see me again,

and you'll always wonder why

and you get best answer.

My heart was made of glass,

and with every blow you threw,

it slowly started to crack,

so much pain it caused,if you only knew.

Why was i put here?

just to be hurt everyday?

to be constantly full of fear?

to be played with like a ball of clay?

You may be out of my life,

but,i'll never forget what you did,

all that pain and strife,

still burns me like acid.

It wasn't just the physical pain,

you played with my thoughts,

to you it was all just a game,

and i was your voodoo doll.

you did what you pleased with me,

i never had the strength to fight,

no one heard my silent screams,

you just flew me like a kite.

always tied to a line,

or more like put in chains,

no one knew i was even alive,

i was going insane.

you used to say you loved me,

but then i knew the truth,

you just wanted to screw with me,

and i didnt have a clue.

my heart of glass was shattered,

and i didn't know what to do,

after being so beaten and battered,

but then i found some glue.

it hurts when my eyes are open,

it hurts when they are closed,

i hate my life, there's no relief,

i just keep on living with this curse.

my heart, i know its beating,

but i don't feel alive,

i feel like theres nothing there,

like i'm hollowed out inside.

I'm all alone here,

on this f**ked up earth,

I don't know what to do,

with every second it just gets worse.

someone, please,

just here my cry,

i need help,

i want to die.

I've been screaming for awhile,

but noone seems to hear,

Sh!t on this empty feeling,

staying alive is all i fear.

and I'm ready to leave,

i'm done with my life,

so with this poem,

I'm going to say goodbye.

I'm pulling out my hair,

I'm clawing at my head,

This pain is just too much,

I really wish i were dead!

My brain feels on fire,

I'm going up in flames,

No matter what i do,

it all just stays the same.

Living with this constant pain,

It's becomeing more than i can bare,

God, I wish I were in Hell,

at least it'd be easier there.

But God, he has no mercy,

He wants me to suffer through it,

I just wish one little thing,

that he'd give me the strength to do it.

But it seems as if he's forgotten,

about me, and my pain,

When he was taking attendance,

he just looked over my name.

ugh, This pain, it's spreading,

over every inch of my skin,

it's too much, i'm gonna die,

i never imagined such an end.

it hurts when my eyes are open,

it hurts when they are closed,

i hate my life, there's no relief,

i just keep on living with this curse.

my heart, i know its beating,

but i don't feel alive,

i feel like theres nothing there,

like i'm hollowed out inside.

I'm all alone here,

on this f**ked up earth,

I don't know what to do,

with every second it just gets worse.

someone, please,

just here my cry,

i need help,

i want to die.

I've been screaming for awhile,

but noone seems to hear,

Sh!t on this empty feeling,

staying alive is all i fear.

and I'm ready to leave,

i'm done with my life,

so with this poem,

I'm going to say goodbye.

I climb up onto the roof,

and i start to scream,

i want this thing out,

out of ME!!!!!!!!

It's a poison,

blacker than night,

poisoning my heart,

i'm filled with fright.

Just get it out,

It makes me depressed,

Just GET IT OUT!!

It's burning my chest.

I'm going to die,

if you don't help me,

It's eating me away,

Why Can't you see?

I'm fading away,

little by little,

I don't know the answer,

my lifes just a riddle.

Someone please help,

I'm falling in,

into the darkness,

this is the end.

- i really don't know why i wrote this poem, i just did.

our planets weather?

what do you think?

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why must you control me,

tell me what to do,

You say do this, do that,

well why don't you?

I just want to live my own life,

why won't you let me?

worry about yourself,

and just let me be!

everything i do is wrong,

i can't do anything right,

just leave me alone!

get out of my sight.

I'm tired of living like this,

i can't wait to depart,

soon i'll be out of you hands,

and i'll get a fresh start.

it's a first write, so it needs a little work.

but thought i post it anyways.

Goodbye

Popping pill after pill,

until the bottle is empty,

because I'm called mentally ill,

can't even drive to the pharmacy.

These pills on which I dine,

They make me feel hallow, and empty,

yet they say that I'm fine,

why can't they see?

Anti-depressants,what a lie,

They make me feel like ****,

they make me want to cry,

like I want to give up, just quit.

so I tie a rope in a loop,

cause I'm ready to die,

as I hang it on the roof,

I whisper goodbye...

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and when would they open their eyes (approximately)?

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